This... can NOT be happening

Jealous

I'm trying to shoot for 2000 words for this chapter and I'm gonna write this chapter in one persons pov then write the same chapter in the other pov. Also sorry about the long wait for this chapter, hope you like it.
Ps. This chapter is gonna be like a month after the last chapter.
Gilinsky's pov:
"Jack," Johnson says snapping me out of my daze "dude you were staring, again!". Ugh he's totally right I need to stop watching Shawn, but how can I? HE'S GORGEOUS.
"Oh right... uh.. sorry," I stutter looking back at him "what were you saying?" He rolls his eyes and walks away, "what?!?" I raise my eyebrow.
I haven't talked to Shawn alone since we stopped sharing a room, and to be honest I kinda miss him. I heard him say he was in love with me, but that was a over a month ago. How knows how he feels now? He seems like he's more into Espinosa than me. Ever sense they started sharing a room they've become inseparable. My jaw clenched thinking about Shawn being with Matt. Okay so I know I have no right but, I get like SERIOUSLY jealous of Shawn with other people. I don't know why, we're not dating so I shouldn't feel like someone is poking my heart repeatedly with a very sharp stick when I see Matt and Shawn together, but I do.
I would never tell anyone that though, not even Johnson, they just wouldn't get it. "Hey jack me and some of the guys were gonna go out and get some food before we have to go on stage, ya wanna come?" Cam asks walking over to me from where ever he was before.
"Nah I think I'm just gonna hang here if that's cool, I'm not very hungry" I say "that's cool," he starts "hey is everything alright you look distraught" I look up at him. "Oh no I'm fine just didn't get a lot of sleep last night" he nods and leaves with most of the boys. I look around the room and only see one other person in here with me. Shawn.
We make eye contact and smile at each other, before going back to doing what we were doing. About ten minutes I hear Shawn walk over and sit down next to me, he looks at me and I glance over and smile at him then look back down.
"Did I do something wrong?" He asks after a couple minutes of uncomfortable silence
"what of course not, why do you ask?" I still don't look up at him.
"Because.." he draws out "we haven't talked or hung out for over a month, every time you look at me you look like someone just punched you in the face, and... throughout this entire conversation you haven't even looked at me once." I look him dead in the eyes.
"We haven't talked because we don't share a room anymore, I have jack now remember?Simple as that. He's my best friend, so yeah I spend most of my time with him. And you spend most of your time with Espinosa, so it seems like your fine with out me and I'm fine with out you. Okay?" Wow that sounded a lot less mean in my head.
"Okay" his voice came out weak and he looked like he was about to cry.
Before I could comfort, hug, and apologize to him the guys came screaming through the door.
"Dude those girls were crazy" "ikr" I can not wait to meet them" "dude that's gonna be so fun" the boys say pulling us out of our moment. We all sat down as they told me and Shawn the "crazy" story of getting attacked in the lobby by pretty girls.
I watched as the rest of the guys got ready for the show seeing as I already did that while they were gone. In the corner of the room I saw Shawn talking to Matt, he still looks very upset. I hate seeing him like that, and know that I'm the reason he's like that makes me feel broken. We're called up on stage before I get the chance to apologize, the show just consists of the guys being dorks.
Shawn sings a song like he normally does but today he's introducing a new song about "someone special". (A/n the song is imagination and I know it says "she" and stuff like that but imma change those bits. I know the lyrics I'm just alternating them a bit so don't hate on me about it).
Oh, there they go again
Every morning it's the same
You walk on by my house
I wanna call out your name

I want to tell you how beautiful you are from where I'm standing
You got me thinking what we could because

I keep craving, craving, you don't know it but it's true
Can't get my mouth to say the words they want to say to you
This is typical of love
Can't wait anymore, I won't wait
I need to tell you how I feel when I see us together forever