This... can NOT be happening

Tension

Sexual and awkward tension soon to come in this chapter. Trying to get it to 3000 or 4000 words this time.
Jack g's pov:
Jesus Christ the people here are actually trying to kill me, I swear to god! Why else would they be purposely trying to push us together? Because they hate me. The boys have to know that we were in a relationship, I told at least three of them about it. So why are they trying to get us to do things together? Or hang out? This is actually going to be the worst three months of my life.
Shawn got so unbelievably hot!! And he wrote a whole album which is so good. All I want to do is run my fingers through his hair and tell him how talented he is. But he's still mad at me. So for right now I'll take stolen glances and never having a direct conversation with him, mostly cause it's all I get.
"Jack!! Why did you make me do this? I'm just gonna be mopey and sexually frustrated the whole tour" I whine to Johnson,
"Oh honey you'll be fine, trust me once we start talking to fans you'll feel better" he says and I roll my eyes,
"I doubt it, but whatever I'm gonna go grab a bottle of water from the machine down the hall" I jump up out of bed and walk towards the vending machines.
Of course. The universe is conspiring against me. Of course. Who is the one person I don't need to see right now? Of course Shawn is standing right in front of where I need to be.
"Oh hey sorry I'll move" Shawn doesn't look up from the ground just shuffled over a little,
"Thank you" I mutter as I put the money in the machine, I look over at Shawn and open and close my mouth several times trying to think of something to say to him.
"I don't want things to be this awkward between us" Shawn says breaking the silence "but I'm not really sure how we're just supposed to go back to normal"
"I don't really think we can, but we can always try" I suggest "and hey if that doesn't work we can try to just be exes who don't hate each other and can act some what civilized"
Shawn laughs and it sounds like music to my ears "yeah definitely"
"I've missed you" I blurt out truthfully,
"I missed you too" Shawn responds sweetly "ya know that you even were the inspiration for one of the songs on my new album?"
"Um no! Which one?" I laugh and nudge his side slightly,
"Because I had you, you heard it?" He ask and I shake my head
"No but I'll have to do that when I get back to the room" Shawn smiles at me and I feel my heart stop, I miss everything about this. I miss talking to him, making him laugh, not completely avoiding each other. We go out separate ways after a few minutes and I jump into bed immediately.
I pull up my music app and click on the Shawn Mendes self titled album and onto because I had you.
I think it's time that I be honest
Should've told you not to go
Thought I knew just what I wanted
I didn't know myself at all

You're with somebody I can't be, yeah
But I can tell that you're happy

It's time for me to finally meet somebody new
Take her to all the places that I took us to
And she might help me forget, but loving her is something I could never do
Because I had
Because I had you

When the chorus hits I could feel tears welling in my eyes, Shawn Mendes really does have a way with words doesn't he.

Hey, remember when I told you
That you and I, we'd go down in history together, yeah

And does your sister ask about me?
You and I, what we had, is it gone forever?

You're with somebody I can't be
But I can tell that you're happy

t's time for me to finally meet somebody new
Take her to all the places that I took us to
And she might help me forget, but loving her is something I could never do
Because I had
Because I had you

There's nothin', oh
There's nothin' left to lose
Because I had you, babe
There's nothin'
Nothin' that I could do
I wish I had you