sick - im jaebum

ten

it was dinner time before subin was ready to face jaebum. while she felt bad for putting him in solitary, she knew it was best for everyone in their wing.

she walked out of the cafeteria with a bag of food in hand, knowing that he hadn't eaten since breakfast. hopefully with some food in his stomach, he'll be able to talk rationally and without destroying something.

she unlocked the door from the outside and walked in slowly. first she poked her head in and saw jaebum laying on his bed, reading a book. he poked his head around the book as subin closed the door behind her. she set the bag of food on his end table and stood with her arms crossed.

"you ready to talk?" she asked, cold eyes staring at him.

jaebum marked his page and closed it, "i was ready to talk after ten minutes of being locked in here. gave me an excuse to organize my dresser, though." he tried to give a smile but subin wasn't having it.

"then talk," she said.

he sat up, "i'm really sorry about how i acted back there. i was never good at controlling my emotions, so when they said i'd be here for at least a year i was angry."

"you're preaching to the choir here, jaebum. i've been here for ten, and i'll probably be here for more, and you're trying to tell me that you're angry about your length of time here?" subin asked, starting to raise her voice.

"i mean, i-i'm," jaebum stuttered before shaking his head and putting it in his hands. "i didn't think about it at the time. my outburst wouldn't have been as bad as it was if they hadn't done things to me. they brushed feathers up and down my arms, wiped my face with rough towels, they even put me in a god damn wool sweater. do you know how itchy those things are?"

"no, i don't," subin said. "but i do understand how angry you are. hell, my parents dropped me off when i was eleven, said they'd be back within a month, but never came to pick me up. now i'm stuck until this place decides to give my life back."

jaebum blinked, "they left you?"

the girl nodded, taking a seat next to the boy on the bed. "it was like they were disgusted by me or something. i'm actually surprised they put up with me as long as they did. the doctors actually thought they were abusing me since i had so many bruises, but they just didn't care what i did to myself. i can't feel physical pain but," it was subin's turn to bury her head in her hands, "i can still feel emotional pain."

it took jaebum a little bit to realize that the girl in front of him was crying. subin, who was the backbone of everyone in this wing, a rock, was breaking down, crumbling and crying in front of him. while it broke his heart to see her like this, he was kind of happy that she was letting her walls down.

"hey," he said wrapping his arm around her. "it's okay. it's your parents' loss, really. they lost out on an amazing daughter and an amazing person. i think they should be put in here if they really don't want you in their life. diagnose them for insanity or something," he said, his voice going soft and gentle, which frustratingly made subin's stomach do flip flops.

"i was supposed to be scolding you, but it turned into a woe-is-me fest," subin rubbed her eyes, letting out a wet laugh.

jaebum put a hand on her knee, "i'd rather you let out your emotions like this than how i do it."

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so there's a little bit more background on subin

WILL WE EVER GET A BACKSTORY FOR JAEBUM????????????????

spoiler: yes u will dont worry