STARLESS EYES

That I Tried to Make You Leave

THERE IS ACID IN MY BLOOD
THERE ARE TOXINS IN ME
THERE IS VENOM IN MY LIPS
SO PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME

THERE IS CHAOS IN MY VEINS
I WILL SHOW YOU WITH MY KNIFE
I WILL BRANDISH MY SHARP WORDS AT YOUR SOFT HEART
I WILL NOT FLINCH AT TAKING YOUR LIFE

LEAVE ME LEAVE ME LEAVE ME
I DO NOT CARE FOR WHAT YOU FEEL
I ONLY MEAN TO PICK YOU LIKE AN ORANGE
AND DISPOSE OF YOUR PATHETIC PEEL

GET OUT MY ARMS DO NOT WANT YOU HERE
GET AWAY FROM ME YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A HEART TOO EASILY CRUSHED
I DO NOT WANT YOUR SOFT FINGERS ON ME OR TO FEEL THE WARMTH THAT FILLS ME WHEN I SEE YOU'VE BLUSHED

PLEASE GO AWAY I DO NOT WANT YOU
(i need you please don't go)
YOU ARE JUST A TOY AND I WAS BORED
(you are the most real dream i've ever had and my mother always told me dreams are nightmares in disguise)
I AM THE HEART COLLECTOR YOUR HEART WAS FUN TO CATCH
(don't believe me, don't believe me i just can't hold you without thinking my mother gave me wine as a child to poison my heart enough to kill what i love)
YOU ARE JUST ANOTHER BAG OF BONES PRETENDING TO BE A PRINCE
(your humanity frightens me - my mother once told me that the more your heart leaps and tries to run to someone - the faster you have to run away)

I WILL NEVER LOVE YOU DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND
I HAVE LIVED MY WHOLE LIFE IN THE COMFORT OF MYSELF
I DO NOT NEED YOU TO MAKE ME WHOLE
I DO NOT WANT YOU

(i make myself as whole as i can but there are pieces of you that make me fill the specks inside of me that i cannot reach alone
i'm lying i am a prisoner to my castle of isolation and you make me feel less like the queen of murdered hearts -
but -
my mother is always in my head and i cannot forget what she said
as a little girl i once gathered a butterfly infested with ants and plucked them till she was free
she was so weak that i held her while she drank from flowers and sugary water
when she left i cried - i had fallen in love with her tiny white wings and curled tongue
my mother had came to me and said:

WHEN GIVEN THE CHANCE NEVER CHOOSE THE ONE YOU LOVE FOR THEY WILL BE YOUR END)

- and so I want you gone because I am known for murdering hearts and giving the bodies a map to a transplant hospital but you - you could murder me and i cannot live with a broken heart