I hate this house and I hate the adults in my family. All they do is give me shit well I can't take it. If hanging out with friends diffuses me from bad situations why aren't they saying I can be out with them all.
Blue has had a bad day and I hate to see her sad. My other friend let's call her Megan had a breakdown in front of me and I hated it. I act like a big strong guy but inside...I'm dying well I want to be anyway. No body should have to be afraid to wake up. So why should I? I love my girlfriend but I'm going to lose her. I hate this. I hate being her. But blue needs me and I need her. So I guess we're back where we started...blue. I need a walk but I can't so I'm sorry if I don't answer my phone. X x x
