Today has been bad.
Really fucking bad.
I applied for A level ethics and philosophy because i wanted to do it at uni and hopefully one day teach it. But no. As per fucking usual I've been knocked down at the first hurdle. I then left school to go get 'food' i actually got to KFC ran around the back of the bus station and broke down. I then forced myself to stop because i saw people from school. I ran into KFC picked up my cover story and then left. On the way back to school i bumped into sherry my girlfriend, i dont think she realised id broken down because my cheeks are always bright fucking red. Because my bodys retarded.
I got into my normal act and laughed and joked. I got pissy but then had to get my shit together. Because i had a chemistry exam that i wasnt prepared for and i know ive failed. To be honest i dont care the news i got next is what killed me.
I walked straight home as my mum was working. When i walked through the front door i could hear shouts, male and female i waited at the door because my paranoia made me feel like i was going to be stabbed. I then got barged out of the way by my little brothers dad. A dick who never liked me and always tried to make my life hell. I walk in and ask my mum what happened.
"Whats going on?" i asked.
"Sam...your brother...hes going to stay with his dad for a while. I cant look after him and his dad can so. I know you were close but its for the best." she replied smiling.
Who the fuck smiles when theyre telling their eldest child hes about to lose his best fucking friend in te world. Hes been rhe reason im still here and know im going to lose him. I cant deal with it i need him. I cant not be with him. Im going to lose it.
