So there's this girl and she's been causing havoc in my stomach leaving butterfly's wherever she goes and it's really starting to piss me off. XD
Today's been an average day apart from the last bit. I saw my friends around school like normal but blue wasn't there I freaked I thought she'd done something and she was gone and I'd lost her. That's a big fucking deal. She's the only one who pulls me out of the whirlpool of depression and strands me on a beach where I calm down. But obviously no one can stop whirlpools from getting worse and bigger. I want to get better. Because I'm starting to get tired of waking up. I want to be with my friends or on my own. And I spend so much time sleeping. It's insane. My arms healing now which is good but now my heads telling me to fuck it up again. I guess I'll speak to blue she should calm me down.
I've always said that the world we live in is a brutal place. But if you find someone who can make you feel like you could take on the world...hold onto them because they matter I guess.
Blue is wanted
Blue is needed
Blue is my best friend
And I don't want to lose her.
Tonight I'll stay clean or try to anyway. She needs me to be strong everyone does. It's a big responsibility. But I don't give up easily.
Night speak soon ^-^ x
