Say Something || Klaroline

Chapter Three || Caroline

Caroline sighed sinking onto the small blanket Stefan had kept in his car, she had changed her mind about the bar realizing that she didn't want to be around people. She needed her best friend and some of his wisdom because unlike everyone else he knew her better than she knew herself. Stefan was the only one Caroline could talk to without feeling completely judged and he understood her troubles better than anyone. Instead they sat outside star gazing in the college grounds. It would have been easier to go back to Mystic Falls but Elena would be there, Elena and Damon. Campus was just safer at the moment, just for the moment.

"Are you sure you don't want to go out to a bar?" Stefan asked handing her the bottle of whiskey. Caroline shook her head in response looking up at the starry filled night, taking a pull from the bottle remaining quiet. Which wasn't something Caroline was known for, she was never quiet which worried Stefan. 

"I just- I don't get it." Caroline said finally taking another drawn out pull from the bottle. 

"Don't get what?" Stefan asked softly tearing his gaze away from light skies to look over at his best friend with concern. 

"All of it." Caroline didn't want to admit that she couldn't get Klaus out of her mind or the fact she ached to be with him again. It was bad enough that she gave into her desires once but to do it again? It was suicide. The only person whoever saw Klaus as everyone else besides Caroline was Stefan, they were once friends, brothers even. If any one could understand how she could possible still feel this way it would be him. Though the real person who should understand what it's like to have feelings for someone who is seen like a monster is Elena but she isn't speaking to Caroline. 

Stefan tipped the bottle back waiting patiently for her to continue, he understood the fight she had with Elena had been more than just a disagreement.

"I think about him sometimes.." Caroline said softly staring out into the darkness, "I known I shouldn't. Its just...remember when you said we were just like him?" She asked finally turning yo face him.

"Yeah," Stefan said with a nod, "I do."

"I know he's a horrible man, trust me Stefan I know that but how is Damon any different?" Caroline's voice softened knowing Damon was a sore subject for Stefan.

"Damon has more people who care about him, he has people who haven't given up on him yet." He replied finishing off the first bottle.

"But the only reason anyone besides Elena cares about him is because of you Stefan," Caroline answered, "If he wasn't your brother he would most likely be dead by now and well since him and Elena are a thing she's the a new reason. But he's done nothing for any of us Stefan, he abused me and he killed Jeremy once and tried a second time. He's tried killing Matt because he was angry I just don't see how he and Klaus are that different." 

Stefan knew the more Caroline drank the more emotional she would grow, they both knew that she didn't mean everything she said, she just needed to let it all out. Stefan was the only one who would listen and not judge her. Stefan was all Caroline really had now, Bonnie was busy with Jeremy and there was no way she could talk to Tyler about this, her life was crumbling apart around her and the only constant thing in her life was Stefan. 

"Do you want to be with him?" Stefan asked openly.

"What!?" Caroline exclaimed chuckling nervously, "No, god I just can't stop wondering..it's not like I really... I- I'm just tired of everyone praising Elena for being in a relationship with a monster and I sleep with Klaus once and I've gotten nothing but judgment for weeks. Weeks, Stefan. Weeks." 

"It's okay if you do," Stefan said giving her a small smile, "I wouldn't think any less of you. One of the things I love about you is you see the good in people, even when no one else does. You also make people want to be better, I don't know where I would be without your support this past year. You're an amazing friend and who you have feelings for won't change that."