the sky was overcast, and the rain was coming down hard.
it had been raining ever since grayson and i got home last night. jacob had invited ethan and grayson to come play video games, and asked me to make everybody hot chocolate.
by the time that i had made a cup of hot chocolate for everybody, our doorbell rang. "could you get that, jacob?" i dropped a bunch of mini marshmallows into each cup, wiped my hands on my giant sweatshirt.
"yeah, sure. thank you for making the hot chocolate, by the way." he smiled, and made his way to the door.
i was about to take a cup to arielle, but jacob's loud laughs had caught me off guard. i almost dropped the mug, but i saved it.
"fuck, what took you guys so long? the bakery is only five minutes away from us," i could hear jacob opening, and then closing the door.
"gray and i needed to have a talk, but we're here now. where's mila?" ethan's voice sounded a little hoarse, probably because of the weather.
i picked up another mug, and waited for the boys to come into the kitchen.
jacob came in first, so i handed him the cup that was originally for arielle. "you're a lifesaver."
ethan and grayson came in at the same time, i couldn't help but notice the pink and white box in grayson's hands. the box was secured with a little red bow, and grayson wouldn't stop tugging at it.
"what's in the box?" i made my way over to grayson, and handed the other cup of hot chocolate to ethan.
he was about to speak, but gray interrupted him. "oh, this? i... i got you a cupcake."
ethan squinted, and took a sip of his hot chocolate. "you weren't supposed to tell her, g."
grayson gave me a tiny smile, and placed the box in my hands. "just pretend that you didn't hear anything, please."
i laughed softly, and untied the red bow. "i didn't hear anything, i swear." the box was easy to open, thank god. i placed the top of the box on the counter, and looked inside. "how did you know that i liked strawberry cupcakes? did i bring it up?"
his little nose had turned pink, at the tip. "i had to ask jacob what kind you liked."
i set the box on the counter, and made my way over to gray. "you're so sweet, gray. thank you." i wrapped my arms around him, he kissed my forehead.
jacob cleared his throat, and we immediately separated. "what's going on with you two?"
neither grayson or i could find the right words to say. honestly, i didn't even know what we were. i don't think that he did, either.
jacob downed his hot chocolate, and wiped his mouth with his sleeve. "no, no, i'm not upset with you guys. i'm just glad that you're interested in grayson, and not ethan."
i covered my mouth to keep myself from laughing.
ethan's jaw dropped. "hold on, what is THAT supposed to mean?"
grayson laughed, and covered it up with a little cough.
"dude, you know that i love you," jacob made his way over to the dishwasher, and opened it up. "there's no way in hell that i would ever let you date camila. you're horny as hell, and she's too pure for you."
grayson snorted, and my eyes widened.
ethan narrowed his eyes, and crossed his arms. "what's so funny, grayson?"
gray laughed nervously, and wrapped his arm around me. "nothing. how are you and arielle, by the way?"
grayson joined me on my bed, and watched as i split my cupcake in half.
"have you ever tried a strawberry cupcake?" i held one of the halves, and put my other hand under it.
grayson shook his head. "no, but i want to try it... if that's alright with you."
"that's why i cut the cupcake in halves, gg. i wanted to share it with you." i handed him his cupcake half, and licked the frosting off of my finger.
he whined, and avoided my gaze. "you... drive me crazy."
i slid the icing off of my cupcake, and licked it off of my finger. "this is just how i eat my cupcakes, gray. i'm not trying to drive you crazy, i promise."
grayson studied his cupcake, and made eye contact with me. "can we talk? about yesterday?"
did i overestimate my sex skills?
"of course, what's up?" i tried my hardest to seem chill, but i was starting to feel a little uneasy.
gray took a deep breath, and rested his head on one of my pillows. "mimi, it's obvious that i like you," he put the cupcake back on the plate, and picked at a loose thread on his sweater. "i'm really glad that you were my first..."
i tilted my head, and nodded slowly. "is everything okay?"
he buried his head in his hands, and sighed. "no, not at all. i kind of... i feel like i got my hopes up." grayson lowered his voice, and continued to hide his face. "i don't stand a chance with a girl like you."
"don't say that, gray. please, don't say that."
he held out his arms, and kept his eyes on my white sheets. when gray was distressed, a 'lost puppy' look always appeared on his face.
i crawled over to him, and rested my head on his chest. "gray, i wouldn't have had sex with you if i wasn't interested in you, romantically. that's just not how i am, gg."
grayson ran his hands through my hair, traced shapes on my arm with his fingers. "i haven't been able to stop looking at the picture i took of you, mimi. uh, i... obviously, you look really h–" he was stumbling over his words.
i turned my head a little, and placed a soft kiss on his jaw.
his heart was racing. i was so close to him, close enough to where i could feel his heart beating. "ethan told me before that it's really cringey, when people get attached after sex. the thing is, when i looked at the picture... i felt a little possessive over you, n-not in a creepy way, more of a soft way. i was so proud of myself, for sharing such an intimate moment with... my girl– or at least the girl that i wanted to be my girl."
grayson had rambled to me before, but this was his first rambling session that actually made sense to me.
he wasn't done yet, though. "i was a little afraid that you would like ethan better than me. most people do."
that sentence broke my heart. grayson deserved to be happy, always.
i rested my hand on his stomach, and closed my eyes. "you have nothing to worry about, gray. i'm your girl, not ethan's. i think it's safe to say, that i like you a lot better than i like him."
a/n: i wrote a long chapter to make up for being busy today!! i hope that you all liked it 💖
