Keira's Life

Keira: Chapter 8

Darkness was all I could see. Infact, I couldn't see anything. I could feel my head throbbing in pain and something cold being splashed over my face, my eyes slowly opened and my top was damp, and some of my hair. My auntie was kneeling over me looking petrified, I rubbed my eyes and slowly sat up.

'Keira! You had me worried SICK! I had the paramedics down the phone telling me what to do, what's wrong with you child? If you ever scare me like that again-'

'Shut up.' I said and she stopped talking and gave me the dirtiest look.

'Excuse me? I know you aren't speaking to me Keira!' I stood up holding onto the heater and slowly started walking up the stairs. I felt like I wasn't even in my own body. I didn't feel myself and I just wanted to drop dead right then. My suicidal thoughts were coming back, this is why I told Ricardo I NEED those pills, he won't come with me to get them! If I relapse it would be his fault.

I walked over to my mirror and stood infront of it looking blankly at myself, my light caramel skin had changed and become a sickly pale colour. My normal dark brown hair had gotten so dark it looked black and it looked limp, not it's usual thick long curly self. My eyes looked so dead. Like it had no life behind them, I had bags under them and my lips were pale. My loose long sleeved long top hung on me like a top on a hanger. I looked so thin, I'd only just started noticing these changes in myself. I looked and acted like a complete different person. I tied my hair up and grabbed my towel, I went to have a long hot shower, brushed my teeth and washed my hair. I dried, creamed and got changed into a high waisted floral skirt, a white tank top tucked in and a black cardigan. I spent ages drying my hair and I straightened it. I pushed it back with a skinny alice band and put my black pumps on. I picked up my bag and sprayed a bit of perfume. My phone started ringing and some number I didn't recognise came up.

'Hello?' I answered.

'Katie? Wagwarn babes!' I laughed when I remember it was that boy.

'It's Keira, I beg you tell me your name.' i said and walked down the stairs, my auntie looked up from the sofa and raised her eyebrow. I ignored her and walked out of the house closing the door.

'You wanna know my name? Ite, It's Marco.' I nodded, hm, it suited him.

'Okay Marco, what did you want?'

'So I can't even holla at you?'

'Yeah you can with a reason.' I heard him laughing and I smiled and got on the bus.

'Basically I just wanted to speak to you init, how are you?'

'I'm fine.'

'You feeling better after yesterday? You kinda had me worried you know.' I laughed lightly and sat down.

'No, I'm fine. Was that your reason for calling?'

'Yeah partly, what you doing now?'

'I'm on my way to see someone.'

'Oh right, when you gonna come and see me then?' I laughed.

'Not after the party thing, I was completely off my head. I need to go though so I'll speak to you another time.'

'So there will be another time?' He asked.

'Yeah maybe if you shut up and go there will be.'

'Ite ite, bye Katie.' He hung up and I kissed my teeth and put my phone back in my pocket. How annoying, I told him my real name :\ I stayed on the bus until I got to Ricardo's and I knocked and fixed my hair a bit. I looked much better now that I'd made an effort and got out the house but I kept chewing gum to get my mind off those pills. Infact, just mentioning them makes me want them. I CRAVED them. I didn't want to have anything else apart from them. Tiarna opened the door and literally jumped on me.