Love Was Made To Break (Andy Biersack Wmbm)

Chapter Eight

Bryce's Pov
In the resting area of the tour bus that was once again on the move from another city to the next. We all sat in a small circle everyone, me included.  It was around 11:00 and nobody could really fall asleep. I mean who could when you were growing restless from the endless moving and stops.

So we all decided to be the childish adults we were to play truth or dare with a twist, everyone had to do one dare at least once and you can ask them as many questions if you pick truth.

So basically almost like a game of drunk truths.  So it was a good round of half-drunk adults playing around, lots of laughter and what not. I cracked a grin, CC just got done with doing his truth getting a lot of questions out from everyone.

"Who's turn is it?" Juliet asked with a tired giggle, setting her drink to the side for a moment, I shifted my arms so they rested on my raised up knees a bit, pulling my hood up more to shield myself a little, keeping my gaze on everyone who was slowly getting sleepy and letting their exhaustion take over.

Andy immediately gazed at me locking our gaze. "Its Bryce's turn." He nodded his head over towards me, giving me a soft sad smile that I sent him one back, rubbing my lips together for a brief moment.

I guess we patched things up yet again. Like we always did in the end.  "Truth." I answered with no hesitation, laughing at everyone who groaned or rolled their eyes playful.

"I already did my dare." I exclaimed followed after with a soft small chuckle, Jake smirked playfully my way speaking first.  "What song are you obsessed right now?" He asked me.

I clicked my tongue a but across my cheek for a moment letting my answer out with ease, "Adele When We Were Young." I nodded a few times liking my answer.

"Cute." Ashley commented, holding his beer closely in his grip shifting it in his palm.

I winked playfully halfway him causing him to laugh through mid sip of his drink. "Is it true your sexuality is not straight?" CC then asked playful, making me choke a laugh out wondering where all these questions were coming from.

"True I am not straight. I am pansexual." I commented out the correction, keeping my arms fighter locked across my knees. Andy visually startled, his jaw almost dropping a little. "Really?" He asked his tone growing higher than ever.

I nodded with a small smile, proud of my sexuality, that took a little time to fully understand.  "I am pansexual Andy one of the few things you don't know about me." I teased. Andy just smiled at me looking down for a moment.

"What's one thing that shows how much and how long you and Andy have been friends?" Jinxx asked curiously, but it looked like he was holding back a yawn from leaving him.

I licked my lower lip holding my aching arm above my wrist.  There's a lot of things I and Andy have done now that I was thinking about it. Almost like a bucket list really.

Me and Andy kept our gaze locked for a full minute, like we were mentally trying to figure out what to say  Then he started chuckling looking at his wrist were our tattoos were. I then found myself smiling knowing what he meant. So I started to explain.  "When me and Andy were nineteen we got tattoos." I whispered and Andy let a small laugh out nodding and Juliet rolled her eyes with a small smirk.

"Really?" Jake was confused, Ashley nodded yet again, wiping at his chin with one quick motion. 

"Duh Andy shows it all the time it's on his wrist." Ashley commented back even Juliet looked back towards him surprised.

"Seriously?" She exclaimed, Andy nodded with a shy look across his face, breathing out these small chuckles leaving his cute face.

"Me and Bryce got them as a promise because back then I didn't understand why Bryce self-harmed but now that we grew. I only understand a little so we got them together," Andy called looking at me again flashing me his charming smile.

I gave Andy a smile back that showed I was nervous, but that at the same time I was happy he remembered, such a little thing like that.

Me and Jinxx shared a quick stern look with one another.  I looked down holding my arm tighter, CC looked at Juliet raising an eyebrow. "And that will be more meaningful than your guys," CC called making Jake, Ashley, Jinxx and Andy laugh softly with one another.

I chuckled they are referring to Andy and Juliet having their names tattooed on each other.

Juliet grinded her teeth with a deep glare then studied me with a disgusted look then she smirked for a just a moment.

"Bryce, why don't you show your tattoo?" Juliet asked innocently like. I slowly gulped Andy lifted an eyebrow, my way. A small flash of hurt going across his face.

"You haven't really been showing your wrist or tattoo," Andy commented as well, Jinxx started rubbing his temple.

"Did you get it removed?" CC asked curiously. I was quick to shake my head at him my hair moving with my actions. I found myself scared none of them should know about my self-harming it shouldn't have to worry or concern them.

"No, no." I stammered. "I still have it, I just don't feel comfortable showing it." I stuttered hoping they would drop it.

"We just wanna see it, Bryce." Juliet called with a fake pout. "Unless you really do have something to hide like scars or whatever." She called out. I slowly gave her a small glare when she gave me a small smirk puckering her lips out giving him a fake kiss.

Jinxx was giving me worried eyes and behind my eyes, it was like a little trigger remembering the bullying and everything that happen as teens it felt so overwhelming at once. The first time I started selfharm, even a small trigger from when Andy started dating Juliet.

I squeezed my eyes tight when it all just came rushing to my head making it hurt. I had to bury my head in my knees slowly for a quick moment, just so I could catch a breath and gather up my thoughts from racing so fast.   "Guys quit it, Juliet, enough." Andy called in hard tone, I heard light shuffle movement.

I felt arms secure around my upper body, hugging me, feeling their head resting in place on top of my own. "Bryce are you alright?" Andy whispered I heard all kinds of whispering and muttering.

"Is he alright?" Jinxx spoke up first between everyone else, Andy's large hands were rubbing my shoulders blades a few times squeezing at them a few short times.

"Bryce what's wrong? I can't help you if I don't know what's wrong." Andy whispered to me yet again making sure just me and him could hear one another.

I inhaled a sharp shaky breath, it seemed each breath was making my throat more rough then the last. "I...I just need to go to sleep, I'm exhausted." I whispered only for Andy to hear and he kept rubbing all on my back and shoulders somemore.

"Alright, Bryce is going to sleep," Andy announced towards everyone, I felt his head lift off my own I just kept quiet. I knew he knew. I know Andy knows he knows me all too well.