Chapter Eleven

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Bryce's Pov
I cracked both my sleepy eyes open, feeling the heavy feeling of all the drinks I had come crashing down on to me and my chest as well. Never drinking that much hard liquor again. We all knew that was a small lie. "Shit." I crooked out, I had laid down my glasses lopsided on my face. I traced my hands on the sheet of the warmth of my own bed.

Tomorrow the dreaded day I don't want to see, but it's finally happening. Andy and Juliet's wedding such venom and hate place into that one single sentence.

I don't want this to happen life isn't fair but at the same time, when is life fair to the ones who try? I have to watch my best friend the only person I have ever loved get married to who he loves. Ugh I sounded like such a damn asshole. I let an annoyed hurt shout out, sitting up feeling a stream of hot fresh tears leaving me. Wow... All these damn tears still hadn't had enough had they? Was I not sick of crying yet.

"Andy, you don't know what you have always done to me." I whispered.
I was half drunk still, I had to have been at the moment it wasn't helping my emotions not at all not one bit.

"No I don't believe love was meant to break. It started with hatred." I whispered quietly like, my phone flashed a quick minute before it rang.

I scooped my phone up putting it to my ear after answering. "Hello." I called in a quiet confused tone, "Bryce?" I headed the smooth sound of my name being called. I breathed a hard rough chuckle out clicking my tongue out across my cheek.

"I was wondering when I would be hearing from the groom to be," I called sarcasm leaking all out. I was angry I didn't wanna attend the bachelor party I just wanted to alone. "Bryce we haven't been the same in a long time..." Was the first thing Andy said to me.

"I miss you." Andy finished off. "You don't miss me, Andy." I snapped out, "You wouldn't have gone and done the many fucked up things to me." I continued anger seeping out fast. "You defended Juliet over and over even though she has done evil things. Telling me to kill myself, jump off a building all the things regarding all around you." I sniffled deeply crying now.

"Andy I missed you so much you don't even know how much I do, I've cried over you so many times you don't even return it." I called Andy was dead silent.

"Bryce I can't ever help you, if you don't let me help you I'm here and I'm not leaving." Andy demanded to me hard. I cracked a sad smile letting the tears paint my face with sadness pooling my eyes making me feel less than.

"I'm gonna tell you something Andy I want you to listen to me before I pass out crying," I found myself muttering.

"Bryce are you drunk?" Andy asked me worried. "Where the hell are you." He snaps.

"I'm safe that's all the matters." I answered fast, "Listen." I whispered.

"Don't you know we're still gold just another day we made mistakes, face the rain don't walk away," I muttered to him shutting my eyes deeply using some of the most touching songs he has to let my heart out. That's what I was gonna do.

"There's another chance to make it straight, every time, you walk away I lose the words I need to say I just paint it black every time I lose a fight and I'm dying to be right I just paint it black," I told him deeply. "It was just like a movie, like when we were young." I whispered, "in my heart, we share a home and for years we've let it grow." I call.

"I don't know what to do anymore but just let it out to you Andy," I found it hard to form words to him suddenly, "What I am trying to say, Andrew Biersack no I don't believe love was made to break." I cracked out."But I just paint it black paint because I deeply love you," I confessed to him. The oh so heavy crash that was always settled in my chest felt lifted.

I heard Andy's unsteady breathing, almost like he couldn't breath. "Bryce..." Andy crumbled out. "Why did you wait until now to tell me.. why did you wait all these years to tell me this you've had all the feelings for me!" He snapped sounding so upset but conflicted as well.

"I don't know." I whispered breathless in all honesty I don't know why I waited. "All these years I wanted to see you happy more then myself, I loved seeing you happy even if it meant I wasn't happy. In the end Andy that's how love always works." I muttered.

I slowly fell back on my bed shutting my eyes feeling emotional drained. "Don't be sad Andy or cry, I just need to find them." I muttered. "In the meantime." I started smiling sadly, "Seeing you in love all these years is all worth it." I muttered.

"Bryce I hate you so much right now." Andy snapped at me I could hear him softly crying, which was just more startling to myself. Damn it I need to comfort him.

"Why the hell would you do this me how can you be this way," Andy demanded of me. "What if I've felt this same way I just didn't realize it," Andy demanded through his shakey breath.

"Bryce we are still strong please don't do this.." Andy called. I shut my eyes taking my glasses off putting them on the table side, I then slowly curled up on my bed feeling so drained mentally and emotionally.

"I love you Andy." Was the last thing I spoke before pressing hang up and letting my phone fall from my hands and land next to me while I slept away little pain.

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