White Liar

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He stares at me, dropping his hands from my shoulders. "Wh-Why are you bringing this up." He sighs sounding annoyed already. "Here? Now? Seriously Emily?"

"You said you would be honest with me, I wanna know why." I say.

He turns away from me. "I-I-I don't know." He huffs. Running his fingers through his hair. "What the hell Emily. I don't even remember."

"Try harder." I lean on the wall beside me.

He sits at the edge of the bed. "It was junior year of college. When me and you had that big argument because you wouldn't move in with me." He stops looking at the floor. "Uhh. José called and invited me to a party. When we got there it- it was a lot of people there, Natasha came up to me and asked if she could talk to me in private when we got in the room she started talking about something I honestly can't remember, then she kissed me but I did pull away." He looks up at me with pleading eyes. "I told her to stop and tried to leave but she blocked then door and one the thing lead to another.When I woke up a couple hours later I realized what happened. When I left the room I bumped into Alex, and he figured out what happened. I made him promise not to tell you." He puts his head down in shame. "I knew what I was doing that night, I wasn't even that drunk. I should've stopped it."

I look at him. I don't know what to do honestly I can't be mad at him when I did the same exact thing. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't wanna lose you." He stands walking over to me with teary eyes. "I can't lose you Emily. I'm sorry. I should've told. Hell I wish I never even went to that party. I'm so sorry for hurting you."

I sigh walking over to our suitcases. I change into night clothes. I get in the bed laying down looking at the wall. I have nothing to say to him, but what can I say, what can I do. It'll be dumb for me to leave now when the situation happened almost a year ago. I feel the bed dip. He wrap his arms around me kissing my head. "I love you." He whispers. I don't respond. My mind is clouded with so many unsaid thoughts.
I sigh closing my eyes drifting off to sleep.

•

"Emily wake up!" My body shakes.

I slowly open my eyes turning over. My brother stood dressed in a black shirt and blue jeans and white Air Force ones. "Why did you wake me up?" I look around the room. "Where's Jason?"

"Skylar took him with her" He says looking in the mirror at himself.

I sit up fully. "Took him where?"

"She had to go to Phoenix for something. I don't remember. The boy will be fine." He turns to me. "Get dress. Dad said the plane will be ready at 2:30 for take off. It's already 1:15 right now." He walks out the room.

I sigh stepping out the bed. I walk out into the bathroom, Turning the shower on. I stand under the shower head wetting my hair. Did Jason leave to avoid me today because of what happen last night. I wash my self the step out the shower walking back into the guest room. I pull out a brown knitted sweatshirt and light blue ripped jeans and white Air Force ones. I put on the Out fit, putting moose in my hair crunching it to get it curly. I do only my eyebrows, eyeshadow, and mascara for make up, going somewhat natural today.

I grab my purse walking out the room, down the stairs. "She took Aaliyah too?"

"Yeah." We both walk out the his getting into his Benz Jeep.

"I should call him." I pull my phone out my purse.

"He's fine Emily." Ryders pulling off into the road.

I ignoring him calling him anyways. "Hello." He picks up on the 3rd ring.

"Hey. Why didn't you wake me up before you left?"