Dont You Want Me? Levi x Reader BOOK 2

Chapter 1

Author Note - I would like to thank @ToughWriting for the inspiration to write this, I have to admit, I have missed adding to this story. Please read "I am All Yours" First as this will make no sense at all if you haven't read it. Are you ready for a rollercoaster? Buckle up Baby! 

For the Love of Files!

"Why did I agree to do this job?" You cried out in exasperation, surrounded by files and papers, to the point that if anyone were to walk in the room, they would not be able to see you unless they looked closely. You heard a chuckle from your companion, who was also hidden behind books and papers, and you scowled at him, even though he wouldn't be able to see you. 

"Kotenok, I thought you liked reading. Nothing like good book." You heard the deep timbre of his voice descend into laughter again, and you heard him stand up, a few of the files scattering onto the floor. You muttered under your breath about this was nothing like a good book. The heavy footsteps on the wooden floor told you that he was coming over for a visit, or in other words; a break. "Oh look, you are sweet on floor, like little book worm"

You scowled at the redhead but it was far too difficult to stay angry at those gentle green eyes and that cheeky smile of his. "Lex, honestly, anyone would think you are enjoying this! I used to like reading until I took this job! All the mission reports are boring me to death." You said with a slight whine in your voice. 

"Now, now. Remember what life would be like if you didn't. You were to be thrown out of Corps and Military Police. Where do you think you would be now, if Alexei had not gone to commander to ask for your company, hmm?" His face was stern, with a raised eyebrow; yet again he was right. If he hadn't have helped you, you would have been disgracedandhomeless. He put his hand in his pocket and pulled out a boiled sweet and dropped it in your own.

You opened your mouth in surprise. "Okay okay. So you're right... again!  But where did you get these? Even with the top ration cards you cant get these." You eyed him suspiciously, however even with narrowed eyes, you unwrapped the sweet and popped it in your mouth, giving him some semblance of a smile.

"Good, no? I brought them with me, from city. Sugar will pick you up, I have not seen pretty smile on face for a while. What is wrong?" Lex's eyes set on you with a sad gaze, like he almost knew what you were about to say before you had even said it. He smiled in an attempt to hide the fact that he knew things weren't as good as you normally made out but it was obvious enough that he had even asked the question.

"Nothing is wrong Lex" You answered, however the apathy in your voice conveyed that there was. You looked away from him and sighed, there would be no way to change the conversation, he would not allow it for one thing. If Lex knew there was something wrong, he would not let up until you had finally given in and divulged all the gory details; yet you really didn't feel like talking. 

"Now, Kotenok." Lex cleared his throat, you knew that was his way of telling you that he wasn't going to wait forever, and that you had better start speaking sharpish. 

"Oh! Fine! Not like you aren't going to pester me until I finally give in is it?" You said with a huff. "Well things were going fine, it was great, and then when people found out about me being in internal affairs they just started making life difficult and avoiding me... and then..." You trailed off. 

"Mr Darcy?" Lex offered gently. 

"Yes." You answered miserably. "I just don't know whats happened. Everything was amazing, after everything we went through together and now it feels like he's a stranger to me. I wouldn't mind it if he shouted at me, but I don't even get that any more! Then there is the fact that he is always away on scouting missions and I barely even see him any more, let alone the rest of the team." If you could have slumped any further onto the floor you would have done, but there was no more room to collapse in a pitiful heap. "I just don't know whether it was worth it you know?"

You knew deep down that it wasn't true, you would have gone through it again and again just to have been with Levi. For the smile that he reserved only for you, and the glare that you got if you went anywhere near Eren. Even to this day, he still did not like you being around him, all the more reason that you now met in secret, and chatted about the missions that he went on, often, it made you feel isolated that you weren't able to experience them with him, but you knew that it was no longer possible. 

"Worth. I see. You do not love Darcy anymore?" Lex asked almost perplexed. 

"Of course I do! I just don't know what to do any more, or whether he feels the same way." Your voice sounded even more pathetic than when you had first started. Lex gave a small chuckle, the air seeming to lift around you as the notes echoed into the hallway. 

"I have to tell again? The Captain loves you (y/n) but I do not think you talk. Love walks hand held with talking. Maybe you should try this? All is not lost. Just try it. It will not be long before he is back from mission and you should sit by fire and talk about why heart aches." Once again Lex, the one who had avoided relationships for most of his life, had given the best advice to try and salvage the imminent end of your tryst. 

"You are a clever man Lex! I shall, as soon as he is home I will drag him into our quarters and talk." You smiled properly for the first time in a long while. Alexei shook his head, and laughed. 

"I do not think forcing him to talk is wise. It must be gentle process, for both to open up. Still, it is good start!" Lex moved away again and settled down to his papers, after a few minutes he spoke again. "Have you found anything that would suggest why Commander took bribe?"

"No" You sighed, feeling slightly defeated. You had been reading through all these documents with nothing to suggest that there was any corruption within the Corps. Erwin had sworn blind that he would not say another word about the incident and had not been pressed by the more senior members to do so. Surprise, surprise.  However, that was your task, you had to find out the nature of the bribe and all details regarding it, so the situation never happened again. 

Hours passed before you managed to break away from your reading, and you noticed it was starting to get dark out. The reason that you had been roused from your investigations was because you heard a lot of movement downstairs, that could only mean one thing; Levi was back. 

With a jump, which sent papers flying everywhere, you ran out of the room, a fire lit in your heart to get things sorted with your 'Mr Darcy', you heard Lex cry out in his rustic brogue, probably swearing at the sound of more files crashing down behind him, but you didn't care, all you wanted to do was see Levi and welcome him home. 

You stopped next to the doors to the entrance, and straightened out your clothes that were wrinkled from sitting down. You could feel your heart racing and your cheeks burning with delight at being able to see him. Quickly you sneaked a look out of the window next to you, waiting for the opportune moment to catch him off guard with your overwhelming love for him.

However, when you looked outside, there was Levi, helping a woman down from his horse. You blinked in confusion, with a puzzled furrow forming at your brow, and you continued to watch. The woman rested her hand on his shoulders, tenderly though, not as if she was using him to balance herself and you were almost sure you caught Levi smiling. Your frown grew deeper, this wasn't normal behaviour for Levi at all! 

"Captain, would you like me to fetch (y/n) and let her know that you have returned?" Asked one of the cadets, you tilted your head, at least someone had thought of you! You held your breath waiting for his response, he would explain it all, you were sure.

"No. Do Not. Our guest will be staying in my quarters. Let the staff know, and have a room made up for Officer (L/N). Also advise her this, she is up in the archives I expect. Now leave us be." The Captain ordered, no ounce of affection in his tone when he spoke of you, and he was now throwing you out of your shared bedroom, with no mention of him staying with you.

"Yes Sir." The cadet rushed past you, as you hid in the shadows of the room and you stood there paralysed. Time seemed to stand still, you couldn't fathom why this was happening. Their footsteps were the only thing that wrenched you back into reality, and you stayed where you were, barely able to breathe. 

They walked past you, not noticing you standing there, you hoped they would move quickly so you could move out into the courtyard to finally get some air, yet they stopped, Levi turning to his new acquaintance. 

"Who is this Officer (L/N) to you?" The woman asked, her face still hidden by the dim light in the hallway. 

"Tsk. No one, she is nothing."