Well Josh found out that I talked about him to my family. Which is okay I guess just kinda embarrassing since they're my family and he's my boyfriend.
I loved Josh, he made me feel like I actually have a purpose in life. He made the thoughts go away, he made me stop self harming, and he made me love him. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else, this was perfect.
Josh and I were just laying in bed. He was sound asleep and I was just thinking about how lucky I am to have this beautiful boyfriend who makes me feel safe.
I wonder if I had a future with him, I mean like what if we breakup or one of us-one is us-. I couldn't bring myself to say the word, it was too strong. I said that word one too many times to myself . And I wasn't gonna say it while I'm with him.
"Tyler?" Josh said, I thought he was sleeping.
"Yeah Josh"
"I love you" he said said he loved me,I knew I loved him but I wasn't sure if he was ready to say I love you.
"I love you too Josh".
Josh looked down at me and brought my chin up for a kiss. This kiss was amazing, it didn't seem like any old kiss where you just peck your lips to each other, it felt heavenly.
We kept kissing until, I felt Josh began to grow hard. I was a little surprised, but I knew I wanted this.
I started kissing down Josh's neck, slowly began to move my way to his collarbones. Ughh collarbones are my weakness. I moved down towards Josh's torso, he let out a moan which made me just melt.
I stopped at his waistline, and looked up at Josh to see if it was okay. He nodded which was a good thing.
I removed his boxers where his erection sprung up. He was huge as I expected. I began.
A/N okay ummmmmm I'm gonna leave you guys on a cliffhanger cause i um just don't want to write smut right now. But yeahhh but don't worry I'll write the next chapter soon and finish the smut. I wanna give a big shout out to @hesitant-writer, for spamming my account thanks dude 💙😊 please don't be mad that this chapter is short I just don't want to write smut at this moment but here's a smutty picture Okay bye this is getting weird.
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