The POETRY CLUB

The Other Women

A collaboration with JanaJoubert

Jana started with the first stanza while I did the second one.. The italic parts are Jana's parts

My heart beat so wildly the first time I saw you
I thought I was going to catch fire.
My insides were twisted,
And when I finally woke up to smell the coffee,
You were already gone.
You vanished into the night...
Never to be seen again.

I was lost in a world of chaos,
Darkness surrounding my heart,
You were that light I needed in my life
Yet you'll never understand the meaning you had in my life.
You're never here, too many women in your life
I've lost that light you bring in my life, you're gone.

I thought you loved me enough to stay,
I was wrong.
You thought you were gonna be the one to give up,
You were wrong too.
I guess both our mistakes counted up to one,
And somewhere in the end we lost our sensibility.

We thought we'll be bounded for life,
Happiness our sanctuary,
I was so wrong.
You were always with your other women,
Spending your money, time on all them.
While I kept waiting for you to reach my heart, you were out there tearing others.

I found out you were with her on our anniversary.
You had brought flowers, chocolates,
Took me to my favourite restaurant,
But no amount of food could erase the taste of disloyalty on my tongue.
No amount of flowers could take away her perfume on your jacket.

I found out you took her out, the other woman,
A shallow person I was
The green monster clawing in me, trying to rip you from all your women.
The need for you to be only mine
The want to have you only by my side
Though my desires shall remain an illusion, and I, spiraling in darkness

We were to be married,
And you left me alone,
Fighting for a chance to breathe again.
"Love"...a word that will forever be like poison to my soul.
She came to our house...
The way she looked...

Never had I felt the way I'm feeling,
Disgust, repulsive
He changed the merry person I once was.
I ruined one of his other woman's life on her wedding.
Inhuman, cruel a devil was what I now was.
She stood on the altar, her once perfect make up now all stained
How would I ever live with this guilt consuming me?

Her luscious dark hair cascaded past her shoulders,
And I could see why you had chosen her.
She looked better than me with her thin frame.
She stood there, looking at me,
Like I was the enemy...
Oh how wrong she was!

My cold gaze on her
Her beauty was glorious.
I could see why he'd wed her,
She was perfection, she was a goddess
How I despise myself while my eyes took her whole
I could see I had lost.
Never would I be able to match her,
I was doomed.

"He's mine"
She said it like you were ever mine.
Instead, I found out you slept with her,
In our bed,
Where we slept, made love...
Our kitchen table where I had prepared your meals,
Her fingerprints were everywhere...

She was your final choice.
I could feel my lungs closing on themselves as I utter those meaningless words,
Trying to win someone who was never mine-
My heart couldn't take it anymore.
Drowned in my sins
I was fading in an unknown world
Facing my reality.

That night I wanted to forget it,
To run back to you,
To ask you to forget her with me,
To help me remember why I loved you.
But it was too late.
My world was crashing in,
And I couldn't stop it.

Revealing his love, he came back to me
Love was a wicked feeling
It can be the best thing ever while destroying all you ever had
That night he laid by my side, bedded me.
Yet her name was the one he whispered.
Impure and dead on the inside
I succumb to the darkness in me, welcoming the feeling of failure as I plunge that knife in my heart
A smile on my face, his face the last thing I saw, never shall I be on their way.