The POETRY CLUB

His fake love

A collaboration with JanaJoubert
Her parts are in italic.

Rivers of tears run down my face,
In a flurry of remembering.
My heart stops,
And then starts again.
He left.
Just like that.

Not a single trace left,
He's far too gone.
Not a single memory left
I'm now bawling my eyes till dawn.
Trying to get rid of his face
I immerse my heart in songs

He gave his heart and took it back.
The days passing,
Yet, my heart stands still.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a horror movie.
Other times a drama.
But, this movie feels far too real.
And he?
Feels like the nothingness inbetween.

I knew he was a monster with no heart.
Bereft of emotions, he kept pulling the strings of my heart,
Killing me sweetly yet slowly with his talks
Too overwhelming, I fell in love,
Now love became my destruction.

In the sweet utter silence I can still hear his footsteps.
Doof doof doof against the floor of my heart.
I can still see him changing clothes,
Getting in bed,
Cooking in the kitchen.
And then...
His voice saying goodbye...

I can still see the picture of us laying in bed,
Of us loving each other the whole night.
I still think of him day and night but he'll never know that,
For he left me alone with that void in my heart,
A void that can never be filled again

Oh please God!
Help me.
I think he left me going insane.
I think he's never coming back.
And now I'm wondering...
What did I do?

Was it my fault, was something missing in my love?
Or maybe he got tired of my beauty, they all do.
No longer fresh, he's now hunting for his new victim
Heart dying, I felt myself fading in pain

I never doubted him,
But he doubted me.
And now I'm at a loss for words.
Fumbling for my next sentence...
Uh...
Uh...
Maybe he loved me...
Maybe my vision was impaired.
Maybe you never did.

Maybe I was now just another of his women,
No longer the center of his attention
Maybe we never really had a chance to work.
Now I'm on the verge of death
And he's still not here.

The blood on the bathroom floor,
Is making a slow pool as I stare,
Picturing his face.
I think I felt someone lift me out.
Maybe it was him.
Maybe it was my imagination.

Maybe I'm now having illusions of his fake love.
What we had was nothing.
My efforts, my love, my time all wasted
Never meant to be the same
I relish in my pain

The bath water is still running
My head was submerged,
My lifeline hanging by a thread.
And you...
Gone still.
I think I see a light.

I'm now floating in an unknown place
Unknown sensations, unreal worlds.
You've now found someone else to love, someone else to prey on,
She's flawless yet you'll just play her like you played me.
Loving you, that I shall do forever,
Even if I'm now gone from your life.