High school

Chapter 3: No

April... ?
I realize I'm being spoken to and come out of my thoughts. My chest feels tight again, my eyes are watering but I won't let myself cry. Not now, not ever. I'm strong, I didn't cry.
"April a janitor found you in the girls bathroom.. you apparently.. um.." Jordan scrambled to get his words out of his mouth but nothing was coming out. He looked over to my father. He took a deep breathe and finishes for him.
"You were found in the girl's bathroom with a pair of scissors, it seem you.. tried to kill yourself." His words hit me. I tried to kill myself? No. I didn't. I would never do that to my dad. He only had me, I wouldn't snag to leave him. Ever.
"No.. no..NO!" I screamed. I was getting worked up. The machine next to my bed was beeping faster and faster. Guess that was my heart. But I couldn't calm down. It wasn't until Jordan grabbed me by my shoulders and pushed me down.
"APRIL PLEASE!" He seemed hurt. Was I hurting him? I couldn't tell. I couldn't read him.
"April.. look I didn't know you were going through something but I've known you since we were in diapers. You can tell me anything." He looks at me with his brown eyes. His eyes are staring right at me and his eyes are comforting.
"I didn't cut myself." I say. He looks down then at my father. Jordan sits back and rubs his head. I sit back up, did he not hear me? I didn't cut myself.
"Sweetheart, then who did? People only saw you go in the bathroom." I shake my head immediately.
"It was Samantha." I say her name and my father and Jordan's eyes grow with shock.
"April, Samantha is dead. She's been dead since September." Jordan says it slowly so I hear every word he says. I just stare at him. That's not possible. She was in the bathroom with me. I quickly looked around and see my phone on the table next to me. I grabbed it and turn it on and read the time. 4:54 pm November 8th. Thursday.
"How long have i been here?" I asked.
"Since last week Friday." My dad says. Friday? That means the 3rd of November. But thats the last time I seen her, so how can she be dead. She couldn't be dead for two months, if I saw her five days ago. My head is spinning nothing is making sense.
"How did she die?" I ask, still not understand what is going on.
"Apparently she killed herself, one night when she got home." Jordan says slowly, making sure I'm listening to him. I look at my father who is playing with his wedding ring. He never takes it off. He crying while turning it a couple times in his fingers.
"April, please if you were going through something, you could've told me. You're all I got left kiddo." I hear the pain in his voice. The tears running down his face would've made me cry maybe a year ago, but now? I couldn't. I just couldn't. My chest was burning and I felt like it was right to cry but the tears wouldn't come down. It's been like this since my mom passed. I became a human who didn't cry. Or shall I say a person who couldn't cry.
"Dad, I wouldn't never do that to you." I say this while grabbing his hands. I wouldn't. He's done a lot for me. Leaving him like that, would mean I didn't appreciate him and I absolutely did. He grabs my head and kisses my forehead.
"I'm gonna go get a nurse or something to check if you're good, I'll be back." My dad leaves the room, leaving me and Jordan there.
"Jordan.. I didn't do this. She. She did it, Jordan." I pleaded with him. I'm not going crazy I know what I saw. I know what happened. He looked at me and he looks concerned. He looks as if he doesn't know what to say.
"April I've known you forever. And I always believe you, no matter what. But.. this is too much don't you think?" I don't even know what to call this feeling I'm feeling. Hurt? No. Betrayed? No. Not that, it was worse.. it's something in my chest.. no, it was my heart. And it ached when he said he didn't believe me. Why?
I looked at him and he looked at me. I took a deep breathe.
"Jordan, I wouldn't.." I stopped it would be pointless. I let my head hang. As I did I realized my hair was down, it started falling in front of my right eye. As I was about to push it back annoyingly, Jordan's hand stopped me. He took his hand and softly pushed it back behind my ear.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Jordan's POV
"April I've known you forever. And I always believe you, no matter what. But.. this is too much don't you think?" I regretted saying that. I really care for April, more than she knows..but her saying Samantha did this? It's not possible. She's gone. I used to know of Samantha. He took my friend April from me, but I wasn't ever mad about it. I just thought people grow from each other. It wasn't until April's mom passed where April and I became close again. She cried so hard at that funeral. It was the last time I ever seen her cry honestly. I promise from that day forward, I'll never leave her alone. Which is why sometimes I bother her in school just to remind her I'm there for her. But she's changed. I say she more like a machine now. She's done what's expected and usually has the same reaction to everything. Nothing. A blank face. Just now when her father was crying, her face was nonchalant. I know she doesn't feel that way but she doesn't show that side of her anymore. She's speaks breaking me from my thoughts.
"Jordan, I wouldn't.." She stops speaking and lowers her head. When she does her hair begins to fall. I remember when we were little she used to hate her hair in her face. She would push it back so roughly. She was about to push it back, but I stopped her hand. I took the piece of hair and tucked it behind her ear. There.