(Luke POV)
It's been about four days since Ashton and Braden became official. I honestly cannot stand it. Braden gets Ashton from the house before school, and he gets home earlier because of Braden's rides. I know because every time I come home I hear one of the boys moaning. It should honestly be me. I never get to see Ashton anymore! He's either on dates with Braden or fucking him. There is no in between. Well, I'm about to get off the bus. I'll write tomorrow. Dubai.
I hopped off the bus with my usual frown. Knowing that I'd probably hear the two boys 'making love' again. Ugh it really makes me wanna kill a bitch.
I walked in the house, hearing the usual screams and moans. "Ugh! H-harder! Oh!" I heard Braden scream. It must be some sort of rare occasion because Ashton's usually the one getting fucked. I walked past Ashton and I's room and went into the attic.
I opened the door and attempted to fit my tall frame in there. Once I was in, I crawled around. I looked for my old guitar. I hadn't played it in over a year and I felt like now was a good time. It really helped me get my emotions out without hurting anything it anybody.
I grabbed it, turned out the light and crawled out. I ran to the living room and say down in the couch. I got the guitar situated and began to play a song I could barely remember. But I managed.
That should be me, holdin' your hand.
That should be me, makin' you laugh.
That should be me, this is so sad.
That should be me, that should be me.
That should be me, feelin' your kiss.
I sang. I put the guitar on the couch and began to cry, again. I cupped my face in my hands and sobbed. I just couldn't take it anymore.
"L-Lukey? Luke! What the hell is wrong with you! Why're you crying?!" Ashton asked with concern in his voice. He patted my back and I say up to meet his gaze. "C'mon. Tell me. Braden can wait." Ashton stated.
"Okay. Well there's this guy. I've liked him forever and now I know I love him. But, now that I've realized it, he's with someone else. I waited to long. I was gonna tell him how I felt but, it was to late. He'd already been taken." I said, my sobs going away.
"Oh Lukey. Why would he not like you back?! You're amazing! You're funny, kind, smart, attractive..." Ashton trailed off. He thinks I'm attractive? Well that's a start. "But you're just, really great and any guy that could have you should totally take you up on the offer." Ashton smiled. He's saying all this stuff and he honestly doesn't know he should listen to his own advice.
'I'm in love with you Ashton. All of you. I just wanna tell you.' I thought as I stared into his hazel eyes. The ones that I'm in love with.
"Thanks. Maybe I'll talk to him someday. About us being a thing." I said. I probably would never tell Ashton. He'd never love me back and I know it. I'll move on one day. Maybe.
(Ashton's POV)
If only he knew how I felt about him. He's so perfect. Everything about him. The way he looks in my underwear when his are being washed, the way he quiffs his hair, the way he always leaves his jeans in the floor, just everything. Braden isn't bad but, Luke's the one I'm really after and he always has been. But, he's in love with someone else so I have to play it off like I am too.
"Thanks. Maybe I'll talk to him someday. About us being a thing." Luke said. That felt like a stab in the chest. I'd never imagined Luke with someone else other than me.
"Yeah. You do that Luke. I said holding in the pain. "Hug it out?" I suggested. Luke nodded, opened his arms and leaned in. I did the same.
I inhaled his scent of roses and old cedar which was an incredible aroma. The hug was amazing. He was amazing. I wanted to stay in this moment forever. That was until Luke pulled away. "Thanks Ash." He walked up the stairs and into his mums room.
"Damn his ass." I muttered and walked back up to my room. I opened the door and Braden was laying on my bed. He was talked to someone on the phone.
"Yeah. Okay. You too. Okay. See you soon. Bye." He said into the phone and hung up. He stood up and walked over to me. He laced his stubby short fingers with my long drummer ones.
"Babe I gotta go. My moms making dinner and my neighbors are coming over. I'll see ya tomorrow, yeah? I'll bring an extra strong condom." He winked, kissing my cheek and walking out of my room. I just smiled as I heard the front door close.
'He makes me happy. I wouldn't wanna break his heart by leaving him for Luke who doesn't even have feelings for me. I'll just keep things how they are.' I thought to myself. I sat down on my bed and ran my extended fingers through my hair. I sighed.
"Oh god. Life sucks."
(Third person)
Luke took his phone out of his pocket and unlocked it. He hit the FaceTime icon and called Katie. After about the third ring, she picked up. Her hair was curled and down. She was sitting on the floor in black yoga pants and a white Mayday Parade shirt with white socks.
"Hi Luke!" She waved. "What's happening?" She smiled.
"It's Ashton. Him and Braden are together constantly. Having sex, on a date, anything. It fucking sucks." Luke exhaled.
"I'm really sorry Luke. I know what it's like to be cheated on..." Her voice trailed off. "Well no ones cheated on me. But, my mom was having an affair with someone else and when we found out, she left us for Mr. Big-n-Rich." She stated. "And did you say Braden? Haha weird coincidence. That's my boyfriends name!" She giggled.
"Haha, well it's a small world after all!" I shrugged chuckling. She broke out in laughter, sniffling when she was done.
"Oh Luke. So hilarious. Do you uh, wanna hang out? You know, in your time of need." She joked.
"Uh, if you're serious, then that'd be nice actually." Luke said.
"Yeah! I'll text you my address! My boyfriend will be over in a bout an hour though. So we'll have time to talk." She said.
"Great! That's okay yeah. I could be gone by then. I'll see you soon. Bye Katie!" Luke waved. "Bye Luke!" She waved back and ended the call. Soon after, his phone buzzed.
"Katie- 9614 Vera Lee circle. See you soon!" Read the text. Luke punched the address into his gps and locked his phone. He yelled out to Ashton. "I'm going out! I'll be home by 11! Liz is gonna take me so she'll be back soon! Bye!"
Before Ashton could respond he slammed the door and ran toward his car. Liz appeared in the corner of his eye and she hopped in the car.
"Why are those boys constantly fucking?" She asks her innocent son as she starts the car.
He just laughs and turns on his custom made CD and "Heart-shaped Box" by Nirvana started to play. Oh how perfect for the scenario.
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A/N
So this chapter was kinda short and boring I know! It's a filler. The next chapter or two should be pretty interesting ;). I hope you guys enjoy it! Maybe vote, comment and tell your fellow Lashton shippers!
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P.S. The songs of this whole book are Baby Blue Eyes by A Rocket to the Moon and and The Only Exception by Paramore (yes I'm dying). These are my two favorite songs and I really suggest you listen to them. It legit describes this story (or will) and makes me cry.
