(On Hold)The burning candles in our hearts

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"Aisha I just talked to Muhammad. Why didnt you tell me what has been happening?" Khalil asked disappointment evident in his voice

"Because I am not ready to face any of whats happening. It all feels like a dream. I just lost my father and i am still finding it difficult to come in terms with that and then this again! And i didn't think it has anything to do with you. Its not a problem of yours. You are not involved in it so yes I didn't tell you. " Aisha replied him nonchalantly

"What do you mean? We are in this together Aisha! It has everything to do with me. How can you say that?" He said as he walked closer to Her

"I need time to myself please. You shouldn't have come. I need you to leave right now. And when i think of what do to I will call you."

"Are you pushing me away Aisha? What do you want? I will do just that for you I promise"

"I need you to leave me alone for Godsake! You all should just let me be. I need to deal with things on my own" She said loudly taking him off guard and speechless. He stood there looking at her trying to figure out what was his fault. Was it because he came here to talk to her? Was his fault not wanting to lose her to someone? 

He looked down for some seconds before he finally said something.

"Okay. Alright then! I am going now but I need you to....."
he didnt finish what he was about to say when Aisha turned and walked away.

"What is happening?" He asked himself before he finally left after some minutes

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"What did I do? What did I do?"  Aisha kept repeating as she paced around her room chewing off her nails. She suddenly heard Adda zee talking to her

"What is wrong Aisha? You look restless" adda zee asked aisha before she walked into the room and sat on a single sitter.

"I am fine! Nothings wrong" aisha said faking a smile.

"No you are not fine Aisha. I have been standing for almost five minutes but you didnt even notice I was there. You need to be patient. You have to pray hard. I want you to pray for the best. Dont do this to yourself. You are building a wall around yourself preventing others from getting to you. You ve been doing this since Daddy passed away. You didnt even let yourself mourn. You should let things go and always hope for better."

"I am not doing that" Aisha argued

"And what did you tell Ibrahim?. Muhammad asked him to come right?"

"Yes. I told him its not a problem of his and he should let me deal with it on my own

"Really? You told him that?"

"I know Hajja. We all know her Adda. She would never let me be with him. Dont you think she knows? She knows I am with him. She knows he cant get married now. She knows everything. Dont you get it? They are doing this to push him away from me. I need to do that on my own. If its going to end then I should end it now myself before it ends the day I get married to someone."

"You are on the wrong path Aisha. You need help. I am your sister you can always come to me for advise and right now I am advising you to stop what you are doing. Don't forget you are a muslim and you believe that whatever is meant for a person will never miss him and wasnt meant for a person will never get to him. I want you to call him and talk about this like adults. You should be making him feel optimistic about this whole thing instead of making things worst"

"How can I give him false hope Adda Zee? That would be worst" aisha said as she quickly wiped the lone tear on her right cheek

"You are very stubborn. And i hope you dont regret your decision someday" with that Adda zee left Aisha sitted in her room. Both hands on her cheek as she stared into nothingness