Don't let go

Chapter 13

Cameron's POV

We pulled into Chipotle. We had booked the whole restaurant because Shawn had tweeted about us going there and like 200(!) fans had shown up. Danny had to come ahead of time to "protect" us.

It hurt seeing Taylor pick up Kylie, spin her around, and kiss her on the forehead. It felt like my life had crashed. It hurt seeing her smile like that because of HIM. Taylor Caniff. She had the smile that could only be made in heaven. Seeing her with him made it feel like life wasn't worth living. It wasn't worth it. It wouldn't be worth it if I didn't have her. Kylie Giles. And seeing him laughing with her. And I knew what he was capable of doing. I've seen it happen so many times before. He gets close, then can't take it. Breaks the girls heart. And it's like a game to him. But he's the only one playing it. The girl is the game. He plays the game, but doesn't buy it. He pulled her in for a kiss. I had to turn away.

"GET IT TAY!" I heard Carter yell.

I walked into Chipotle. All the couples were holding hands.

Laila and Matt. Katie and Carter. Kaleigh and Nash. Brittney and Shawn. Kylie and... Taylor. They were all sitting by each other.

Gilinsky, Bart, Hayes, Mahogany, and Danny sat by each other.

Jacob, Aaron, Jack J, and me sat by each other.

"I wonder what it feels like." Aaron said.

"What feels like?" Jacob asked.

"Having someone who genuinely loves you and cares for you." Aaron said, staring at the couples.

"Fans." Jack said.

"No. Like, someone who is physically there. Someone that calls you every night to asks you how you're doing. Someone that kisses you, hugs you, LOVES you. Not like 'I love you' love. Like, 'I care for you' and 'I'll sacrifice for you.'"Aaron said.

"I want that." I said.

"Same." Jacob said.

"Yeah." Jack said.

"I would like that. I think I need that right now, to be honest." I said, watching Taylor kiss Kylie.

"It's like I feel lonely. A lot. And all the guys are getting girlfriends and I don't feel good enough. Yeah, I'm a little jealous, but it's hard to watch these couples." Aaron said.

"I feel you, Aaron." I said

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At the party

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The party was going great. At least 40 people crammed into the hotel room. We had everything. Vodka, beer, wine, margarita, sangria... EVERYTHING. Luckily Bart and the staff were 5 floors above us. Last time we got in trouble because we were basically all drunk and underage.

We had really good pizza, too. Mahogany was DJing for us and was killing it. We had Ricky Dillon, Kian Lawley, and JC Caylen from O2L over and a few other youtubers over.

I had to get Kylie alone. The first step was to get Taylor drunk.

I put on my best wasted voice.

"AYYEEE!!! SHOTSSSSSSSS!" I yelled.

"TAYLORRRR! I CHALLENGE YOUUUU!"

He ran over.

"AT LEAST 7 shots. One minute." People had started to gather around the table.

"BARTS GONNA KILL YOU CAMERON!" Aaron yelled.

"Oh well. So what do you say, Tay?"

"ACCEPTED!" Taylor screamed.

Everyone cheered.

"A'right. Time starts... NOW!!" I yelled.

"TAY-LOR!TAY-LOR!TAY-LOR!" We started chanting.

He had 5 down by 30 seconds. He kept going. 8 by 45. Another by 50. He ended up doing 11.

He started wobbling.

"Yea-hhhhhhh!" Taylor said VERY drunk. "I'm-I'm not feelin to good, cam." He said.

Shawn came over and started singing.

"TAYLOR WANTS TO BE DRUNK WHEN HE WAKES UP!"

Everyone laughed.

"Alright." I took him to his bed and told him to get some rest.

He was out. I shut the door and went back to the party. I found Kylie. I went over to her.

"Can I talk to you, Kylie?" I asked.

"Yeah, sure!" She said.

We walked over to the living room and shut the door.

"What's up?" She asked.

"Look Kylie. I like you. Taylor's a dangerous guy. I don't want you getting caught up with him." I said.

"But he's not- and please don't try to drag me away from him!" She scolded.

"Kylie, I'm not."

"Really?" She asked, sarcastically.

"Look your happy with him now but..."

"But what Cameron? This isn't fair to Taylor at all. Pulling me aside to gossip about my boyfriend? That's sick. And why did you say you like me? You know me and a Taylor are a thing now. Forget about you and me." She said.

"I'm sorry. Y-you really mean that?"

"Yes! Now leave me alone!"

"The hardest things to let go of are the things you never had. I honestly don't know what hurts more. Seeing you happy with him, or feeling myself break without you." I said, a tear rolling down my cheek. "But, I guess if I really love you... I should let you be happy with him. I warned you." I ran out of the room.

"CAM! Wait!" I heard her yell.

But it was to late. I already broke.