NOT WHAT IT SEEMS

SEAN

So its been some crazy months. My life's been hectic. Season 3 of HD was doing awesome but I've got other sideline projects working out for me and all adding up to boast my career.

The HD fans have been going crazy about Jaele. Their desire to get a Chenry moment is so unbelievable. They want to see Jace and Riele together so bad it's insane and ironically what they've been pining for is actually in motion- has been for a while now but they have no clue.

We all hang out most times with  cast of other Nick shows. I have to smile and pretend am cool and sometimes I even manage to convince myself of that until I see them together again.

Can't help but remember the day she came to talk to me a few months back. She had been avoiding Jace and I and seeing her come to me had made me believe she will choose me, that I didn't have to be scared and that there was hope yet but I died that day because she ripped my heart and took it along.

FLASH BACK

On my way to my room when Riele stopped me. She wanted to talk. I smiled at her but she looked nervous.

"What's wrong shorty?" I asked cupping her cheeks.

God she looked so beautiful I can't even imagine how much I missed looking into those eyes. But she stepped away causing my heart  to skip.

"Stop Sean don't make this more difficult "

"What are you trying to say?"

Please let it not be what I'm thinking. Don't do this Riele I'll go crazy without you! My mind screamed.

"I've had some time to think about this whole thing and I think.. I...I might like Jace"

PRESENT

Whatever else was said between us that day was a blur. I stopped functioning right. It was as if someone switched off my light and left me in the dark but somehow I let everyone think otherwise.

Maybe am still hurting about her choosing Jace over me but I'm not a vindictive person so when they both finally became a thing and requested their relationship be kept away from the media, as a friend I respected it.

It has not been easy though. Imagine I have to constantly sit squished between her and Jace or Cooper or Ella. It was pure torture. Every time she's some how always sitting beside me at the After Party and she and Jace having these moments that even the fans aren't that stupid not to notice and always commenting on it but as always they debunk the rumors.

I've had a couple arguments with Jace about intruding on his 'moments' with Riele but I just play the friend card with a believable goofy smile and he has no choice but to let it go.

I told Riele I was ok but I lied and I know Jace sees through my lie.

Suffocation.

Each time I see her with him, my heart feels like it's being ripped and stabbed  whenever they kiss.

"God I can't keep doing this to myself " a  tight hold on my chest at a fresh stab of pain whispering harshly to the heartbroken-looking guy in the mirror.

My door opens unexpectedly and an excited Ella rushed in yapping about something until she realized I was not giving two flips and her face scrunched up in worry.

"Are you ok? "

"Yea am cool" nonchalantly shrugging.

She walks up to me and gently wipes a stray tear from my face.

I was...crying?

Great!

"I..I don't think so Sean. You might try fooling yourself along with some but I know you and the Sean I know hardly cries he's always hyped. That Sean doesn't walk around with eyes that scream sadness".

"I'm fine Ella " I sigh going to sit down "Just stressed"

"And you know what would relieve that stress? Get over her"

With a cocked my head "Get over who?"

"Riele " she replied in a duhh voice.

Not even bothering don't to fake it this time. I'm done. If I don't talk and let this out I'm gonna explode and start pacing.  

"You think I haven't tried! I just can't get her off my mind. I love her ok?! I just love her so darn much" A frustrated hand run through my already disheveled hair, groaning.

Ella looked shocked at my outburst and then sorry giving me an encouraging smile coming to stand beside me.

"Maybe you're trying all the wrong ways".

I can't believe am about to take advice from a fourteen year old.

"What do you suggest? "

"Oh I got plenty " she replied with a sly smile.

Poor Sean I truely felt his pain. I was listening to dynasty by Miia when I wrote this chapter  fitting for the mood don't ya think.
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