I Don't Love You

Home Sweet Home?

I wanted to stay in Finland until I was sure Ville had been caught and Burton was released from the hospital.

My pops wanted to leave right away but I told him I just couldn't leave Burton like that, he risked his life for me. So, we stayed for about a week until Burton was released and he promised to come visit us soon. There were no news from the police about Ville, no sightings, clues, nothing. It was like he had vanished.

My pops called the school and they agreed to let us back in next month so we stayed in Florida for a couple more weeks.

I keep having those nightmares.
I would wake up in the middle of the night choking back tears and screams so that I don't wake up Frank. I don't know how long I can keep this up. I have to tell them what Ville did to me.

After dinner, me and Frank went back up stairs to try to go to bed. I changed into my PJ's and got under the covers. Frank just left his underwear on.

He turned off the lights and slipped into bed next to me.

- Frank: I missed this... He moved closer to me and spooned me.

- Hel: This is nice. I said smiling a little.

Frank started kissing my neck and he pulled me closer to him.

- Hel: I'm. . . I'm sorry Frank but can we just sleep tonight? I'm really sorry...

I felt really bad for rejecting him but how can he want me after what Ville did to me?

- Frank: What's wrong Hel? Since we got back from that frozen hell hole, you've been acting a little off...

- Hel: I'm just really tired that's all...

The next day I wake up earlier than my pops and Frank and head to the beach for a walk before breakfast. I change out of my pjs into some jeans and a hoodie.

Once at the beach I pulled out my cell and called mikey.

- Hel: Hey Mike, you busy?

- Mikey: Not really. You ok? You sound off.

- Hel: I can't sleep. I keep having nightmares about Ville. I don't know what to do.

- Mikey: You need help Helena. You need to see a doctor, these nightmares aren't gonna go away by themselves. You need to talk to your dad or Frank.

- Hel: I can't do that mikey. . . . How can I tell him that Ville raped me? What if Frank doesn't believe me, what if he..

- Mikey: Don't even think about it Helena. Frank loves you more than anything or anyone in this universe. He'll understand and do whatever he can to help you.

- Hel: I love him too mikey, but what if I don't get better? What if he gets tired of waiting for me?. I sat down in the sand.

- XX: Then we'll just have to keep trying until you feel better.

I turned around and I saw Frank standing there. He gave me a small smile and sat next to me.

- Hel: I'll call you later Mikey.
I hung up .

- Hel: So... How much did you hear?

-Frank: I heard enough. . . Why didn't you tell me Helena?

- Hel: I don't know, I guess I was just afraid that you wouldn't believe me, or that you would want to be with me anymore . . .

- Frank: Why would you think that Hel? Nothing that has happened is your fault, Ville hurt you and I'll make sure that he pays for what he did to you.

Frank pulled me in for a hug and kissed the top of my head.

- Hel: I'm sorry I didn't tell you before and about last night too. I just don't feel ok enough to have sex just yet.

- Frank: No, I'm sorry. I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable Hel, I love you and I'll wait as long as I have to.

- Hel: I love you too Frank.

- Frank: If you're up for it, once we're back in New York we can look for a therapist. I'll go with you to your sessions, if you let come with, of course.

- Hel: You'd really do that for me?

- Frank: Of course! Helena I really do love you and I still want to spend the rest of my days with you. I'll do everything I can to help you feel better.