I Don't Love You

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- That midget's going to pay.- Bob said bitterly.

- Maybe it was a mistake, frank is a very common name.- Mickey said.

I went to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of vodka that had been there over a year, a glass and went to sit in the room had not been drinking since the accident with Ville. Lynz and Alicia went to sit with me.

- How can it be a mistake Mikey?!, we called his phone, it was his voice that said he had no girlfriend.

Tears began to weld up in my eyes and I took the first sip of vodka. At first it was bitter, after swallowing I felt my tongue and the rest of my mouth numb, there was a little burning in my throat.

** i dont  understand why he would do something like that, we were happy, right?? * *  I took another shot of vodka, this time it was easier to swallow, ** how stupid am i?, Pretty stupid i guess. How could've i believed his crap story, saying that he loved me and want to be with me, he only used me to get to my dad. **

- Hel don't be like that, I'm sure it's just a misunderstanding, Frank loves you and would never hurt you like that. - Lynz said giving me a worried look.

- Yeah Hel, I'm sure Frank will have a good Explanation. - Ray said.

Gee sat next to me and took the bottle from me, grabbed me by the shoulders and looked me straight in the eye.

- Hel,  I know that this is making you very sad and upset and I understand you but this (pointed to the bottle) is not the solution. We should figure out what happened with Frank, talk to him, give him the benefit of the doubt.- Gee gave me a hug and more tears rushed down my cheeks.

I pushed Gee away when i noticed i was soaking his shirt with my tears and i picked up the bottle.

- Guys, i need to be alone for a little while ok, See you later.- I said walking into my room and locking the door behind me.

- Hel, you can't stay locked in there forever, we don't want anything bad to happen to you.- Mickey said leaning on my bedroom door.

- Yeah Hel, at least let Lynz and I stay to keep you company.- Alicia said.

- I'll be fine guys, don't worry. I promise that I will not leave the apartment. - I said.

- Fine, but we will come for you in the morning.- Gee said.

They said goodbye and I locked myself in my room, put on my pajamas, put on some music and after half an hour the vodka bottle was empty, I was dizzy, I was beginning to feel the effects of alcohol but rather feel that than the feeling of betrayal slowly making its way into my heart.

I went to the kitchen to look for more. . . I finally found a cabinet with more alcohol: red wine, whiskey, tequila, rum and more of my favorite; vodka. I Took a couple of bottles and some ice and went back into my room.

** Frank's POV **

The Christmas holidays were over and I asked Ray to return to New York so she wouldn't miss any classes, it was bad enough with what I was missing.

I continued working with Tim on the song he asked me t do for his new movie and everything was going very well.

I missed Helena, these two weeks went by so slowly and although we talk on the phone almost every day, I wish she were here with me, really do love her.

I finally finished the song for Tim and he was very happy with the result. The guys in the studioinvited me to go out to a local bar to celebrate that the soundtrack was finished, i wasn't really feeling up to it, all i wanted to do was to go back to NY and see Helena. I greed to go with them and just have a couple of beers, i wanted to get back to the hotel early so i could call Hel and tell her the good news.

At the bar I got to talk to Jamia, a girl who had been working some time in the studio and I realized we had many things in common and she  very beautiful. It started getting late and I wanted to leave but Jamia asked me to stay and keep her company and accepted, I liked the idea of having at least a friend here.

- Do you live here alone?.- I asked Jamia taking a sip of my beer.

- Yeah, for 5 years now, but I don't have many friends, just a few acquaintances. I think it's better that way.- She answered.

- I get it. I don't have many friends either except for Gee, Mikey, Ray and Bob.  We spend so much time together they're not my friends anymore, they're my family.- I replied happily.

- It's great that you have such good friends.- She said placing her hand on my knee.

I gently took her hand and placed it back on the table. Afterwards we spent a while talking and drinking, jamia kept flirting with me but i refused.

- What's wrong Frank, don't you like me?.- Jamia said giving me a pouting look.

- It's not that Jamia, i think you're very cute but I'm in a relationship with someone.- I answered shifting in my seat, i was getting really uncomfortable.

- Come on Frankie, just this once. Nobody's gonna know besides, it's not like you're married to that little girl, what's her name again??.-  She said getting up and sitting on my lap.

- Her name is Helena! And yes were not married yet but . . . .-

Jamia took my face in her hands and kissed me. I pushed her aside and stood up, grabbed my jacket, paid what I had consumed and made my way to the exit. On my way out I came across with none other than Ville, the last person he wanted to see in my life at this moment, I was still very upset with what he said the other day at Hel's house.

- Were you just maing out with that girl??.- Ville asked half smiling.

- Of course not!! She kissed me, she came on to me but i turned her down.-  half yelled at him.

I saw Jamia coming over to us with my phone in her hand, what was she doing with it?

- You forgot this.- I took my cell and left the bar without saying a word to either one of them.

** End of Frank's POV **

The next morning I woke up to my phone ringing, It was Ville calling.

- What do you want Ville?.- I said sounding a bit hoarse.

- Got a hangover love?.- 

- Ugh, and what's it to ya?? Just tell me you want already.- I said getting a bit annoyed.

- I just wanted to say that I found your little boyfriend last night at a bar with a girl. They were kissing and everything, it looked like they were having fun.

So Ville had seen them?? I didn't know what to say, he left me cold.

-You  don't believe me darling??. Wait a sec I'll send you a photo I took of them . . . . Now do you believe me?.- Ville said giving me a "I told you so" tone.

I looked at the photo Ville had just sent me, it was Frank kissing that girl. I couldn't believe it . . . The truth was right there and still i refused to believe it. I began to cry. 

- Oh, darling don't cry, he's not worth your tears.- ville said sweeetly.

- I can't help it, I was very happy with him, I thought we were happy but apparently i'm not enough for him.-  I told him between sobs.

- Do yu want to go for coffee and talk about it? I just arrived in New York a few hours ago to take care of somethings for some shows that the band is doing a few days, what do you say?.-

- Okay, I want you to tell me everything you saw.-

We met at a Starbucks near Times Square, I got there early and ordered my favorite coffee, a Frapuchino Java Chip. I greeted him and sat in front of him, after getting himself a drink he started telling me what he had seen. He said that when he arrived Frank was sitting at the bar with this girl and they were very close together and then after awhile they began to kiss, that was when he took the picture and apparently Frank saw him and left the bar.

I invited Ville to stay in the apartment while he was in town, there was an extra room no one used and it was better than staying at a hotel.The guys weren't too happy that Ville came to stay with me but after a while they were more accepting, I think maybe they just got used to see him there.