Meliora

End of the line?

As hours pass I sit there looking down at the mattress trying to pull myself together. I just had to focus on the next step but I don't even think I wanted to take it, what was the point? Damn I felt like such a fool for falling for his shit. I was just waiting for The Second to come walking through that door so I could literally beg for my death. But the hours drug on and on with no sight of The Second. Great was he just going to leave me here to rot? Probably he was that type, fuck I was so stupid. I begin to regret the decision to join this stupid Clergy to begin with it was obviously a huge mistake to begin with. I lie down and stare up at the ceiling until at some point I actually was able to sleep. It was more of a half assed sleep, then I jolt up as I feel a firm grip on my ankle. "I have decided not to kill you my pet." He smirks as I look at him in disbelief. "W-what do you mean?" I hiss as I jerk my leg away from him. "Because killing you would be far to easy, I want to watch you suffer! You deserve to have to deal the torment of your own thoughts. Also just keep this in mind if you would have kept your loyalty with me you would have had it made." He smirks. "That's where you are wrong! There is nothing good about either of you! I wish I never got mixed up with any of you." The Second just laughs. "Well I'm so sorry." He says in a mocking tone. "Now get your ass out of here! Quick before I change my mind." I slowly stand up, sucking in a harsh breath between my teeth as the pain starts to grow, I slowly limp to the door as The Second continues to laugh as he watches each painful step. "Oh my..I wonder how long you will last out there." Although I did not turn my head I knew his lips were curled in that sickening smile. I finally make my way outside but collapse on the ground from exhaustion. I roll over on my back and just stare up at the night sky. God damn it I really was going to die, this was going to be the end for me I knew it. The thoughts of Papa faded away for the pain but it only made my anger grow more. He was the reason I was in this position and so help me I already vowed I would not return to that god forsaken place. I felt used, Papa toyed with my emotions he made me out to be his whore well no I was just done, I decided it was already game over for me. I close my eyes as I bite down on my lip just wishing for the pain to go away. I was tapped out, why even bother? It would just be best for me to give up."