Meliora

What Else Will Go Wrong?

I guess I must have drifted off, that or I passed out from the severity of the pain in my ankle. I groan as I feel a cold dampness on my face. "What the fuck." I groan as I lazily open my eyes and look at the sky. My guess it was early morning, maybe five or six. A light drizzle fell from the sky making things worse. I slowly sit up and rip my habit off, as I run my fingers through my hair I discovered most of my hair was a tangled mess. "Oh fuck me." I groan as I put my habit on. I sit there and look around trying to get a plan of sorts together. I would be damned if I went back to that hell hole monastery again but I had no where to go and no money but right now my main thought was getting the hell out of this damp weather. I bite my lip as I stand up with wobbly legs, I hiss sharply as the pain returns to my ankle. "Fuck." I bite my lip bloody to prevent me from screaming, the last thing I needed was The Second walking out, but on the other hand was death really a bad thing? I just shake the thought out of my head and stand there for a few minutes trying to adjust. The same question started to repeat where was I going to go?" I take a slow step but suck in a harsh breath as I mentally curse Papa as I slowly make my way outside of the gate. By the time I actually came into the small town what would normally be a half hour drive was a two hour walk but of course the walk didn't seem to help. I felt ready to collapse but I wanted to at least keep pushing myself a little more. Each step I take was starting to become a bit of a challenge but I could risk just collapsing out here, if The Second found me unconscious it's hard to tell what disgusting thing he would do. I finally make my way into the bar, I sigh with relief as I sit down back in the corner away from the others. I rest my head down on the table as I close my eyes for a few minutes, hoping that I would just be left the fuck alone. The pain in my my ankle was subsiding a bit but actually it felt numb but it was better than the pain. I think I may have been almost asleep until I hear a deep, but gentle voice. "Excuse me, sister?" The man clears his throat. I lift my head up off of the table squinting my eyes a bit as I try to adjust but I instantly recognize the man. "Hello Elder Lindemann, what can do I do for you?" "Nothing my child, I noticed you and had to see that you are alright." I had to bite my lip as soon as I hear his accent. I always adored a German accent. "I umm..I have just been having a rough time Elder Lindemann that is all." He shakes his head as he pulls out a chair next to me and sits down. "Please call me Till." He reaches over and takes my hand. "You look very bothered by something, besides does your Pope know you are away from the monastery? Sure you have sisterly duties that are being neglected." I look up into his tired green eyes and nod. "Yes Till..I actually am bothered by something, I know longer wish to be a sister of sin..I want to resign.." He looks at me for a few minutes and lowers his head. "Such a shame Sister, I feel such strong potential in you. That is a real shame." I look down. "I just really feel that I don't belong, I'm sorry but I wish to leave the monastery as soon as possible." Till shakes his head. There's nothing more I could say for you to decide to stick around?" I shake my head. "I'm sorry but no not really." I look down. "I'm just done with the whole thing." I say in a neutral tone. "Alright, if you feel strongly towards this then I can't stop you but you must resign the night of the Ball, before your Pope gives up his position of power." As soon as he is mentioned I feel my stomach start to turn. I really wanted to vomit right there but to look into Papa's eyes and say the very words of I quit this joke of a monastery did give me some satisfaction. "Alright then, I have no problem with telling Papa that I no longer wish to be in his monastery." Till nods. "Alright but until then you must return to the monastery." My eyes widen. "The hell you say.." He nods. "I'm sorry but rules are rules, you must return for now, so here allow me to take you back." "Well I was kinda hoping for a break from that place." I look at him with some hope that he wouldn't seen me back. "I'm sorry but rules are rules I can't really break them for one sister that wouldn't exactly be fair now would it?" I sigh as I shake my head. "No...I guess not." He nods. "Exactly. Now come along along sister." I groan as I stand up feeling aggravated by the fact there was no way in hell of getting myself out of this." I follow him out of there and into the car. I just look out the window as I begin to get lost in my thoughts.