The devil in disguise

Mistake

Chapter 17

Esmeralde (POV)

Umaga na pala, masyado akong na puzzle sa nangyari kahapon samin ni Damien.

Bata palang ako malaking palaisipan talaga yan Gabriel Damien Arcussa na yan para sa akin. Naala ko tuloy noong una ko syan tawagin sa pangalawang pangalan nyang Damien.

"Dapat hindi Gabriel ang tawag nila sayo eh, ang Gabriel para sa mga anghel lang ang name. Sa ginawa mo sakin pagtulak dapat itawag sayo'y Demon"

Ito yung hinatid nya ang kapatid kong umuiyak dahil animo'y naagawan ng candies, which is true inagaw ko naman talaga yung candy nya. Haha! Ang salbahe ko naman poor kid...

Hindi talaga sya kumibo dahil nandoon ang mga magulaang namin. Napaki displinado nya at masunurin sa magulang napakadami nyang magandang trait.

Lalapititan nya na sana ko noon at itutulak uli ng pinagalitan sya ng Mommy nya.

"Gabriel Damien! That's not how we raise you." Sabay pinangdilatan ng mata.

"Damien, sounds like a Demon from now on yun ang itatawag ko sayo. Bebe! Bebebeee!" Make face then irap.

Napaka-chidish pero sanay na akong yun ang tawag sa kanya na kina lakihan ko na nga eh.

Lahat ng positive trait ay nasa kanya na pero pag-ako o kaming dalawa parang iba. Yung puros negative yung tipong kala mo hindi nya magagawa pero nagawa nya pa rin. 

Hindi ko makakalimutan ang gabing iyon...

It was two years ago pero sariwa parin sakin lahat. He was one of the reason why I change, maraming beses ko hiniling na sana baguhin nya na ang pakikitungo nya sakin pero ibang pakikitungo ang pinakita nya.

He was sweet, nice, maaalalahanin, and caring. I was once pinakitaan nya ng ganung bagay but we were never close napagtri-tripan nya pa rin ako pero iba ang feeling nun and I think yung pagkaka-iba ang pakikitungo nya sakin nung panahong iyon. I was starting to developed different feelings for him. Siguro nga dahil bata palang ako pinangarap ko nang maging mabait sya sa akin kaya gusto kong maging close kami.

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There are some scene that are not appropriate. Paki-skip na lang tong chap. Kundi kayo sanay salamat po... Readers be open minded.

We were both drunk that night, me, Jasper, him, and some friends. We were at a party a championship game has ended and they held a victory party in one of Damien's friends house.

I was slightly jealous of my sister back then.. Jasper bilang isang captain of the basketball team manage to won the game at inialay nya ito para daw kay Emmie my twin sister...

Feeling ko noong gabing yun bumalik ang nararamdaman ko para kay Jasper I was once did fall for my bestfriend akala ko crush lang yun pero iba na pala... But eventually nawala yun pero nagalasing ako ng gabing iyon. What did you expect? I was heartbroken that night... Pero kahit ganon I was aware in my surroundings kahit ganun pwede naman akong makitulog sa isa sa mga guestroom doon kaya ok lang.

But that night he was their nasa tabi ko sya, dinamayan nya ako naglasing kami pareho, niyaya nya ko sa bahay nila since wala ang parents nya dahil nasa business trip ang mga ito at sya lang mag-isa dun sumama ako nang walang alin-langan.

Siguro na rin para makaiwas... Sa sister at sa bestfriend ko I was jealous even though I overcome it and I still feel it that time.

That time ok ang samahan namin ni Damien, he knows how I felt towards  my bestfriend hindi ko nga alam kong bakit nasa tabi ko sya noong gabing yun e.

I drink and drink hanggang sa hindi na kinaya ng katawan ko.

Nag-usap kami sandali pero nag-iba ang mood nya, nag-iba yung titig nya sakin dahil sa mga sinabi ko at siniil nya ako ng halik. I was drunk, and I still remember everything. I was drunk and I know he was too... A part me of says hindi nya to magagawa because I know him hindi nya ako pagsasamantalahan.

Pinalaki sya ng mga magulang nya na may paggalang sa babae, kaya hindi nya magagawa iyon, bestfriend nya ang kapatid ko at magkaibigan ang mga parents namin.

Kaya hinayaang ko lang syang halikan ako it was only a kiss lang namam e. It never crosses my mind that things would go out  hand...hindi naman ako mang-mang sa halik inisip ko 'marami na akong na halikan including my boyfriends kaya ok lang siguro' pero hangang doon lang yun, pero iba ang nangyari ng gabing iyon... May nawala...  Malaki ang nawala... Ang aking pagkababae... My virginty...

He was my first and I remember every detailed.

Of how that kiss felt like, of how his hands roamed my body, may  pagka-pwersa at the same time gentle at kong papaano nya ako titigan. May nasabi ako to provoke him that night kaya inangkin nya ako, galit ang mga mata nya nong gabi na iyon I never seen him so furious before... Wala na ako na iintindihan sa mga sinasabi nya.

I close my eyes then felt every sensation that came from him... Hot and at the same time sweet.. I open again my eyes and just look at him and not responding to everything his doing and I know kung anung ginagawa nya I tried to push him but I failed... But still not letting my eyes get drifted... Lasing ako pero alam ko ang nangyayari at naramdaman ko ang galit nya.  Unti-unti ko nang nararamdaman na wala na ang saplot sa aming katawan because I felt shivers, I wasn't able to talk that night dahil naguguluhan ako 'why can't I protest? Why can't I say something? but only watch him do this to me and its a big mistake.' Pinasok na niya ang kanya sa loob ko and I know it's to late then I saw him cried habang ginagawa nya yun at napaluha na rin ako....