You Consume Me /Poetry

I cant have this anymore

I was falling for a stranger, a weird feeling.

I should've known from the start that she was a box you don't open.

One with red flags and warning signs written all over it.

Me being my adventure ridden self opened her up and tried to look in every dark corner.

I just wanted to know why my heart beat increased when I saw her, why my eyes widened by seeing her face,

After years go by, she's leaves no trace of love for me.

She blocked me out her life and acts like she's blind to me.

It hurts me how much she tries not to acknowledge me.

I just want to mean something to you.

I don't want us to love, I don't want me to fall deep again, for some reason I just want her to love me.

That's something that I just can't make happen, but everyday I wish I could. I've had this weight on my back and this aching in my heart.

I'm not that bad am I? You make me question myself.
Am I that bad to be friends with ?

I know I've done bad stuff in the past but I was young and dumb, I want you to forgive me or for see it... It was all out of my love for you.

I learned how to contain my feelings for you now, and I want to be friends. I locked my heart up in a jar, and this time I won't let you in.....

I can't have this anymore, pretending there's no feelings there, staring at you and seeing you stare back. What does it mean, why are you so confusing? I know you don't want anyone to figure you out but I'm a person who wants to figure out everything.

I need YOU

(Please if it's you reading this, just let me in. Please talk to me thats all I ask of you. Get to know me.)