The Summer Of 1993 (Book 1)

The blow up

Roxies pov
Listen here you little bitch, Trisha screamed at me. I don’t know who
the hell you think you are bringing punk ass boys around here she
continued. I mean seriously Roxie are you really that much of a slut. I
have never even seen this boy before and you bring him to my home.
Shut up Trisha I yelled at her. For one I’m not a fucking slut, I’m still a
virgin. For two I only asked him here to bring Jessie some food. For
three this is not your fucking house, this is dads fucking house. If you
weren’t so fucking cracked out all the fucking time you’d know that I
spat. Dad buts his ass for us and all you do Is go out, fuck your
dealer, and spend money on fucking meth. Then you come home and
treat Jessie and I like shit. I’m tired of this. Who do you think takes
care of him all the time when you’re out being a fucking meth whore I
yelled at her again. I guess that last part got to her, because she
punched me square in the nose. Normally it probably wouldn’t have
fazed me buy of course she had a good amount of strength when she
was on that shit. I am so tired of this I screamed. I’m tired of you
putting your hands on me and Jessie all the time. I fucking hate you I
yelled at her. I cannot wait until I turn 18 and leave this fucking place
behind me forever, oh and btw I’m taking Jessie with me when I do I
spat at her. You’re not taking my son anywhere you little bitch she
screamed lunging at me again. This time probably giving me a black
eye. I grabbed Jessie out of the living room threw some shit into a
bag from our rooms, and walked out the door to the street. The
library wasn’t too far from my house so I decided we would go there
until I could get ahold of Angela to see if we could go to her house for
a couple days. I just couldn’t stay there anymore. I need to call my
dad and let him know what is going on, but he will probably side with
Trisha. He usually does, I swear she has him brainwashed somehow.
As we entered the library I took Jessie to the kids section and let him
play a little bit. He loved to learn, and he was very smart. I tried to call
Angela over and over again, but I had no luck. Shit I thought she is
probably out with Ricky, her boyfriend. They spent a lot of time
together lately, but they have been dating for like 6 months I thought. I sat down at one of the tables near Jessie and felt a tear slip from
my eye and run down my cheek. I don’t know how much more of this
I can take a thought. Almost like a miracle my phone went off. Thank
god it must be Angela I thought.
Hey Rox, did your bro enjoy his food and ice cream? How about you,
did I get you enough tacos?-Chaz
Ya Chaz you got me enough and Jessie loved it. Thank you again-Rox
Is everything okay Rox? Normally you’re not so short with your
messages-Chaz
Um...Yeah I’m fine just not really a good time-Rox
What’s going on?-Chaz
It’s okay Chaz really you don’t have to worry about me, I will be okay-
Rox
Okay now I am definitely worried, I am going to come back over there-
Chaz
NO you can’t do that Chaz I’m not even there me and Jessie left for a
while-Rox
What? What happened? Why did you leave your house? Where are
you?
It’s not a big deal, really Chaz I’m okay. Trisha and I just had a normal
blowout and I brought Jessie down to the library until I can get ahold
of my best friend Angela -Rox
What do you mean blowout and are you two okay? What do you need
Angela for? I’m sorry I’m being super nosy. I don’t mean to be I’m just
worried.-Chaz
I mean a blowout, a full out fight. And I need to get ahold of ang to
see if her mom will let me stay with her for a few days till my mom
chills the fuck out –Rox
I’m outside come out here and let Jessie play on the playground-Chaz
Wait what? Y are you outside?
Because I’m worried and I’m not leaving until I know you’re okay.-
Chaz
I got Jessie’s attention and we walked outside to the playground. As I
sat down on the bench I saw Chaz get out of his car and walk
towards me. When he walked up the sidewalk towards the bench I
seen his face instantly go a bit red and I frown form on his face. He
sat down next to me a grabbed my head and pulled it to his shoulder.
I guess he could see that I had been crying. He rubbed the back of
my hair in a soothing motion. After a minute of sitting like that I lifted
my head up and looked at him.
What the hell happened he? Asked with a very concerned look
on his face. Did she hit you? He continued. What about Jessie did
she do anything to hurt him?
No she didn’t do anything to Jessie other than scare the shit out
of him, I stated. She went off on another one of her rampages this
evening, and I just happened to be in the crossfire I said. She hit me
a couple times but is was partially my fault, I know not to piss her off
more when she gets like this.
Wait a minute, he said. This has happened before? You really
weren
’t playing when you said she was a bitch, he spat.
No I definitely wasn’t playing around about it, I replied. She has done
this so many times, it’s nothing unusual at all. It happens every time
she…. I paused not being able to get the words to come out of my
mouth. She does this every time she goes out with Darren, and gets
messed up I said quietly feeling extremely embarrassed.
Roxie look at me he said sternly. You have nothing to be
embarrassed about. It is not your fault your mother does this shit. So
don’t feel like that. We don’t choose our parents and sometimes in
life people get dealt a shitty deck of cards. You didn’t ask for this. I
am so sorry you have to deal with all this. I’m sorry you have dealt
with this alone he said again with a sympathetic look. Why don’t we
get out of here and go to my friend’s house for a while. When Angela
calls you I will take you and Jessie over there. How does that sound
he questioned?
Chaz you are so kind to me, I don’t know how I could ever repay
you for all of this. I appreciate everything you have done for me so much I continued, but I don’t want to impose on you and your friend
like that. Really I have to say no.
Look Rox, he won’t care usually we just sit there and play some
video games and drink a few beers. He is older than me so he has
his own place with his girlfriend Erica. I promise they won’t care if you
come with me. Plus they have a little boy themselves, he would
probably love to play with Jessie. Jessie will have a blast I promise.
Just come hang out with us until Angela calls you back I insist he
finished.
I guess, but only if you’re sure they won’t mind I said.
I know they won’t, now let’s get outer here sweetheart. He
picked me up off the bench and walked with me over to get Jessie
and explain to him what we were doing. Jessie and I followed Chaz to
his car, and I opened up the passenger side door and let him crawl
into the back. Jessie buckle up I said before Chaz started up the car.