The Summer Of 1993 (Book 1)

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Roxies Pov
After Chester and the boys were done practicing it was only 7 and I didnt have to be home until 9, so we decided to go to his house for a while. The car ride there was spent in comfortable silence, with are fingers intertwined with one another on the center console. I have never been happier in my life. I have the most amazing boyfriend a girl could ask for, I have a safe place to call home again, and I have the best friend in the world. Nothing could take away my happiness at this point. When we got to chesters house, we went inside and sat down on the living room sofa. Chester turned the tv on and we sat their watching mtv and cuddling on the couch.
"You know" he said. One day that is going to be me up there on stage singing for millions of fans.
"I know baby" i said. You have so much talent. I have no doubt in my mind that you will make it to the big times. Just don't forget about me when you do, i joked.
You know i could never forget about you baby. You are gonna be right there with me, he said serious. I will make sure you have anything and everything you have ever wanted. You know i would give you the whole world if i could, He added.
Aw baby, i love you, i said softly.
I love you too Rox. More than you will ever know, he stated.
He lifted my chin and placed a gentle kiss on my lips, and I immediately returned the kiss. He pulled away for a moment and looked into my eyes.
Do you have any idea what you mean to me? He asked.
I think so, if it is the same way i feel about you, i replied.
You have changed my life, he spoke so softly. You have changed my outlook on everything. With you i feel like i can finally be the person i want to be, the person i should be. I can't really explain what you have done to me, im not good at putting things into words. Not while talking anyways, but writting is different for me. I promised you i would tell you everything about my past but since i have so much trouble talking about it, i haven't been able to tell you and im sorry for that. But i know if i want the relationship we have to stay strong i need to explain it to you. I know i will relapse Roxie, I always do but i want you to know that i am trying and i need you to understand why this is so hard for me. Tomorrow im going to leave a note in your locker and i dont want you to ready it until you get home okay? He questioned.
Okay, i replied.
Babe promise me you won't read it until you get home! Please, he begged.
Okay chaz i promise, i spoke softly.
Chaz? I questioned.
Yeah babe? He replied.
I thought we wern't making any promises? I questioned.
Well babe, you stole my heart and I changed my mind, he said stroking the side of my face with his hand.
That was all it took for my lips to crash into his in a very forceful but passionate way. He returned the kiss making it more and more intense. Things started to heat up again like before but this time it was different. It wasn't raging hormones or animal desire. It was passion and love that fueled it. I love you he wispered between kisses and i happily said it back. After a few minutes, he picked me up off the sofa without breaking our kiss. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he carried me to his bedroom still kissing me over and over again. He laid me down on the bed and started to kiss down my neck to my shoulder. Eventually getting frustrated and gently taking off my shirt. He continued to trail kisses from my shoulder to my chest, and kept going till he reached my belly. Comming back up and kissing me lips he started to undo my belt buckle. He looked at me almost as if he was asking permission, which i silently gave with a nod. He continued to remove my belt, and started to unzip my jeans. All of a sudden my phone went off, i tried to ignore it not wanting to ruin this special moment between me and chester. Finally it quit ringing i thought as i returned my attention back to the handsome man in front of me. Once again the phone started ringing, but this time it wasnt mine it was chesters.
"Fuck" He yelled out loud frustrated. He leaned over and answered the phone so it would stop fucking ringing. Hello? He yelled into the phone. His face instantly went ghost white. Oh shit, he said quietly. Yeah i will is the last thing he said before hanging up the phone.
Babe who was it? I asked.
I waited for a reply but it didn't come.
Babe? I said again.
Roxie I need to talk to you baby, he sounded scared.
What is it? I asked. Can't it wait babe, i mean we were kinda busy.
No baby it can't wait it's important, he stated.
Okay now im getting worried. I zipped my jeans up and redid my belt buckle. I slipped my shirt back over my head and I sat up in the bed looking at chester who was now kneeling on the floor in front of me with a sick look on his face.
Chaz? Baby you're scaring me, i said.
He took my hands in his and looked me in the eyes, Baby there was an accident.
What kind of accident? I asked.
Baby please stay calm, he spoke so softly. Your dad and his team were on their way home from europe, and well... They...
Chaz! I yelled what happened? Is my daddy okay? I asked frantically, Tears forming in my eyes.
Baby, they didn't make it. Your dad didnt make it. Oh god im so sorry baby, he grabbed my hands and brought me down to the floor softly as my legs gave out. Once i was on the floor with him he wrapped me up in his arms and let me cry hysterically into his chest. I cried, and screamed, and punched him over and over again for what felt like hours. All he did was hold me and rub up and down my back trying to calm me. I was starting to hyperventilate from being so upset, even though he was holding me tight trying to keep me from hurting myself and trying to. Comfort me. Nothing would take the pain away nothing i thought. My daddy the one parent i had that protected me and my brother. The one that fed us, clothed us, and continued to provide for us all of these years. What am i gonna do now i thought my daddy is gone that only leaves that poor excuse for a mother. Suddenly my racing thoughts came to a standstill as i heard that beautiful voice singing softly in my ear. As i focused on the sound of his voice i felt my eyes get heavy and then nothing but darkness.