Shawn who?

chapter 6

shawns p.o.v

we enter the tour bus and i automatically sit down. i take out my phone and see i got a message from my girlfriend. Weve been dating for a few months now. i cant say i love her but i feel something towards her. 

Venessa: hey....we need to talk

what does she want? i hope everything is okay. she better not be breaking up with me. 

i start taping with my hands shaking.

Shawn: what? are you okay?

Venessa: oh, im fine. i just wanted to tell you that i moved on. i found someone better. 

what? no.no.no.no.no

i thought she cared for me. i thought she loved me. why? 

i sign, turn off my phone and rub my hand through my hair.

why is this happening? ughhh. i pick up my phone and start typing only eager to see who it is.

Me: who is it

venessa: a high school friend. dont worry. my planned worked. i got famous.

what? she used me for fame? 

i then realized the tears running down my face. i look around and dont see anybody there. i get up while wiping my tears. "guys are you here?"i ask my voice cracking from my current melt down. 

"were in our beds? why? are you okay?" ian asked. "yah, im fine" i say almost as a whisper.

i make my way to my bed and lay down. i just want someone to love me. someone who understands me. some one who wont judge me. i thought she loved me. i thought those "i love you" were true. they were just empty. she left me for someone better. 

i cry harder at each thought going through my head. My cries becomes louder every minute. i start shaking. 

"shawn! whats wrong?" i hear a voice say but cant understand who it is. 

"sh-she broke up with me" i say between sobs. 

"she bro-broke up with me"

"sh-she u-used me"

"what did i even do!?!?" i scream while crying. My body shaking even harder. what did i do to deserve this? i dont know. right then i feel two arms wrap around me. i calm down at the touch. showing me that somebody cares. i open my eyes and see alyssa. what? i thought she hated me. 

my cries calm down and i calm down. breath in and out shawn. dont die. 

"im sorry" i say apologizing. i look up and see alyssa and john staring at me. ian frowning. 

"explain" alyssa says to me as why i through a fit.

"vanessa broke up with me. she used me just to be famous" i explain.

"i knew it. we all warned you shawn. you just didnt listen" ian says to me with john agreeing. i sign and lay back down.

"look guys i dont want to think about. just leave me alone. just like everybody else does" i say closing my eyes. i hear them all go away. wow. i go on twitter and see that vanessa already tweeted about it.

@venessamu-ma-mom: Me and @shawnmendes broke up. i broke up up with me because he wasnt good enough. Dont worry im fine.

ughh. good thing she didnt make up a lie or anything. 

i turn off my phone and get up. i head to the back of the bus and grab my gutair out.

i sit down and start strumming my song "A little too much". i strum with every thing. with all my heart and soul in till i hear someone say.