Shawn who?

part 5

HI GUYS SO IM HAPPY BECAUSE I NOW KNOW HOW TO FINGRPICK ON THE UKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alyssa p.o. v\

I am currently laying down in this uncomfortable bunk in the bus. Shawn is sleeping across from me. John and ian are currently coming back from walgreens. They went to get shawns meds but they wont be ready till 2 months. I have been told to take care of that stupid boy. 

I get up and go to the "kitchen" to get a snack. As i make my way over to the counter i hear something move from behind me. great. 

i turn and see a sleepy looking snobby teenager sitting in his bed. 

"hey"i say getting annoyed.

"hey"he smiles at me. f-boy much?

"are you hungry?"i ask looking at him. he nods his  head no. he yawns and gets out of his bed and sits on the couch.

"im sorry..but where did ian and john go?"i hear him ask as i  poor the milk in my cereal. i grab the bowl and towards the couch and sit down. the other side of him.

"they should be here any moment now. They went to get your pills but they didnt have them."i say taking a spoonful of cereal into my mouth.

"w-what do you mean?"he says with his voice cracking. hahah. 

"i mean that they dont have your pills ready yet. it will take 2 months. So for now they learned a way to try and keep you calm."i say while still eating. 

he nods but i see him look off. he hands were shaking and there was sweat forming. he scrunch up his face and groaned in pain. great. i dont know what to do.

"shawn, look at me"i say taking his hands. he looks at me with tears in his eyes. his chest rising and rising as he struggles to get air. 

"breath okay, dont die "i say calm. he nods and tries to breaths

after a few seconds he finnaly calmed down. "are you okay" i ask. he nods.

"okay bye"i say putting down my food and heading to my bed. i sit down and go on my phone. as i scroll through instagram i get a text from my dad.

daddy: hey hun,how are you? how is shawn?

me: good

i turn my phone off and lay down and put it by my side.i sign and close my eyes. 

i remember my mom had anxiety. 

she used to tell me how it felt.

i mean i feel bad for shawn because no one deserves that but i shouldnt worry. like he worries for me? note the sarcasm.

i suddenly get awaken from my thoughts and hear knocks on the door.

i sign and get out of my bed and go to the tours bus door. as im going i see shawn on his phone smiling. what is he smiling about? proubly his girlfriend. As far as i know they have been dating for a few months. She didnt come on tour with shawn this time become she ''was tired". Her name is vennesa. You could tell shes just using him but hes to blind for that. Hes stupid.

i open the door and see ian and john standing there with food.

yay.

"hey guys",i say to the young men standing in front of me. they nod as i move myself from the door way so they can get in. i close the door behind me and see the in and out sitting on the table and john already eating his. i smile at the food in front of me. 

"wheres shawn?"ian asked to nobody specific. 

i shrug my shoulders cunfused because i saw him less then a minute ago.