Why do all the important and happy things in my life have to leave?hh Nothing makes me happy anymore and when I do feel good it's only temporary. It just feels like there's something wrong with me and it breaks my heartjhs I'm so tired of trying, I just want to stop for good. It's really hard to open up to people, because it makes me feel so stupid and I deserve to be sad after all i've done hkghf I really do hate myself and I don't even feel alive. I'm so worthless and dumb for ever trying, I deserve to feel the pain I do to myself. I did it again. hhhahahaxj
