He's the one

I'm sorry

(Trigger warning for this chapter if you are sensitive to the subject of anxiety, depression, or self harm please don't read this😘 also I love this picture😂)
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D: "we wanted to know if you wanted to open up for us on tour" he said and they all smiled
K: "wait what" I said trying to comprehend what he was saying
C: "Kit your so talented and we are going on tour for about two months and we have been looking for someone to open for us and we want you to"
Ja: "please say yes"
K: "I.. I don't know guys"
J: "please kit"
K: "I'll think about it just give me time I'll let you know by tomorrow"
D: "we'll take that" I laughed, probably a little to hard considering it wasn't even a joke way to go Kirstin. Logan picked up what he needed and we left. I was hoping we wouldn't talk about what happened but of course we did.
L: "so are you going to do it" Logan said smiling
K: "I don't know I really want to but I'm scared to, there's a lot of people at their concert"
L: "Kit you gotta get over this your so amazing you have nothing to be scared about"
K: "Logan it's not that easy, I just don't think I'm good enough" Ive always had a problem with self doubt. No matter how many times any one says it to me I will never think I'm good enough.
L: "that's it I'm done with this bullshit" he says taking a sharp left into oncoming traffic.
K: "WHAT ARE YOU DOING" I yell as I frantically grab for the handle bar.
L: "you'll see" he says he looks kind of mad but I don't know why. A few minutes later we pull into the team 10 house. He grabs my arm and pulls me inside.
L: "Can I have all of team 10 down here I repeat all team 10 get your ass's down here" they started filing in asking what he was doing. Once they were all down there he starts.
L: "so why don't we just asked Kit to open up for them on tour"
J: "oh my gosh that's amazing"
L: "yeah it is but she says she's not good enough to do it and I need you guys to tell her she is because she won't take it from just me" they all came up to me and hugged me and told me that I was perfect and I should do it. I started feeling really anxious and claustrophobic. I had to leave.
K: "ok Logan can we go" I said on the verge of tears
L: "Kit come on you have to do it.... do it do it do it" they all started chanting. I tried walking away but Logan grabbed on to me.
L: "stop being a baby" he said
K: "Logan let go" I said sternly and tried to pull my hand away but he wouldn't let go. I can't explain how I felt I just knew I had to get out of this situation.
K: "Logan I said LET GO" I was crying at this point. He realized something was wrong and let go immediately.
L: "what's wro-" but before he had a chance to finish I ran upstairs and locked myself in the bathroom. I started sobbing before I hear a knock on the door.
?: "it's me" oh it was just Tessa. I reach over and open the door. She sits next to me on the floor. I didn't realize that I was shivering until she gave me her sweatshirt. When I get nervous I get cold. She didn't say anything she just sat there and held me as I cried. It was nice i wasn't really in the talking mood.
After about 15 minutes I hear another knock at the door.
L:"hey Kit we need to go" I opened the door and walked out of the house with him. It was a silent car ride, neither one of us wanting to talk about what happened.

When we get home I go straight to my room and text Alissa about it. It helped me feel better. Logan knocks on my door and slowly opens it.
L: "can we talk" he says
K: "do I really have an option"
L: "not really, so what happened tonight, I've never seen you like that before. I sighed, I guess I have to tell him now.
K: "after you guys left and when mom and dad spelt up it started. I went to a new school and had no friends. People made fun of me a lot for being the new girl and any other thing they could think of that was wrong with me. I got really insecure and sad. Mom noticed and took me to the doctor. They diagnosed me with depression and anxiety. I never wanted to tell you because I didn't want you to worry about me I know how you are and it would have worried you sick" I was sobbing at this point and I looked over at Logan and I saw a tear go down his face. We sat there in silence for a few moments before Logan speaks.
L: "how um, bad did it get" I was hoping he wouldn't bring this up. I look at him and look down at my arms and cried harder.
L: "no" Logan said in disbelief. I pull up my sleeve to reveal a few cuts. Not many it only happened once. I was so ashamed of them and I normally covered them up with makeup. Logan put his head in his hands and cried.
K: "I'm sorry" I've never cried this hard in my life.
L: "no don't" he said and hugged me. He didn't let go for a while.
L: "I'm here, I'll always be here" he said snuggling his head into me
K: "I know" after a while he let go and walked out. I was so emotionally exhausted I fell asleep immediately.

I heard a loud crash which jolted me awake. I rubbed my eyes to get the eye boogers out of them. I yanked the covers off of me and stepped off my bed. I walked out of my room and saw that Logan broke a plate, obviously.
K: "could you not break plates at 8:00 in the morning please"
L: "I mean I could... actually no I really couldn't"
K: "you're so annoying" i say rolling my eyes and laughing. We sat down to eat breakfast, just the two of us. It was nice because I don't get to hang out with just my brother a lot. I was always closer with Logan even though he is 5 years older then me.
K: "are we going to the why don't we house today"
L: "do you want to"
K: "yeah I want to talk to them"
L: "oh ok I just figure you didn't after last night"
K: "let's not talk about last night. He just gave me a sad smile and nodded. We finished eating breakfast and I went into my room to change.

We walked down to the parking garage and got in his car.
L: "so what did you decide" he asked he already new the answer
K: "I'm not telling you yet"
L: "why though" he said whining like a baby
K: "because I want to tell all 6 of you at once"
L: "ugh fine" we pulled into the house and I hopped out of the car. We walked in and the boys were all jumping around waiting for me to answer the question. We all sat down in the lounge area.
D: "well..."
Ja: "did you decide"
K: "yes, I decided to..."
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