SCINTILLA| BELLAMY BLAKE

vi.apus

"Now he understood. This was death. Death was a silence that gave back no answer."

chapter 6: apus

WE SPLIT INTO GROUPS, we all made sure to cover the area around the walls. Bellamy, Charlotte and I continued through the woods, a cool wind had swept across the trees causing us to shiver slightly. I don't know what felt worse my shoulder or the fact that Atom was missing and nobody knew where he was.

Charlotte had stopped walking ahead of us, her eyes were fixated on something on the ground. She let out a scream and I rushed to her side, there on the cold, dirty forest floor lay Atom. I gasped and cover my mouth as tears sprung to eyes already threatening to spill, I looked away unable to believe it was him.

"Charlotte get back to camp and stay there." Bellamy ordered and Charlotte took off without another word.

Bellamy leaned down towards Atom, guilt was evident in his eyes. I knew he was thinking of Octavia, I looked on at the knife gripped in his hand.

"Kill me...please." Atom begged, I wiped at my eyes furiously but there was no use.

The tears cascaded down my cheeks like a waterfall, it felt like my whole world falling apart right now. Atom felt like one of the only things I had left that felt like home and I had treated him like shit ever since we arrived on the ground. There were footsteps and Clarke appeared, her eyes took in the scene in front of her and she sighed. She stepped forward and took the knife from Bellamy's grip, she shared a reassuring glance with him before she leaned down to Atom.

"Wait!" I snapped, I stepped forward as Bellamy and Clarke watched me.

"I-I'll do it." I stuttered as I held my hand out to Clarke for the knife.

"Maybe that's not-" Bellamy started.

"I can do it." I repeated firmly, Clarke nodded and placed the cool blade into my hand.

I sat down onto my two knees beside Atom, his once clear skin was now adorned with boils, cuts and burns similar to the small burn on my shoulder. His once bright blue eyes were now dull and bloodshot, he gulped at the air around us unable to breathe. I raised my hand to brush his hair back, he shook violently and a pleading look filled his sad eyes.

"I'm s..sorry Ev." He choked out and my heart cracked, I pushed my messy hair from my face and gave him a small smile.

"It's okay, I'm sorry too." I replied, my chest tightened uncontrollably at his next words.

"Please.. end it." Atom croaked and I nodded while biting my lip.

I began to hum and I ran my fingers through his hair, I gently brought the knife closer to his throat. I stared into his eyes the entire time, I pressed it harder against his neck and blood tricked out, his mouth opened in shock as he fought to catch final breaths but this was it. His eyes drifted shut and his mouth closed, his movements ceased and he was gone. I threw the knife to the ground beside me, the realisation hit me and I cradled his head in my lap.