The Lifelong Death

29|| Stone-cold beast

Okay, I don't know how but I let out the inner poet of me in this chapter. I don't even know how I came up with these stuff 😂  Anyways enjoy this ultra poetic chapter 🍿

I needed her, I needed her so bad.

Every moment, I was saying "I need you".
Every moment, I was hoping, wishing she was here.
Every moment, I was wishing that it was all a nightmare.

Yet she didn't return.

{ AMIR'S POV }

Every day light peaked through the small window, yet all that had reflected through the light was darkness.

In a few months, I had literally turned into a beast. A beast much worse than the one I was two years ago.

This beast hated everyone, including himself. Actually, mostly himself.

This beast was offered food and water every day, yet he didn't drink a single drop or ate a single bite.

This beast was forcefully living, as though he was living in his death.

This beast, was given life imprisonment for killing his belle.

Yet, this beast was alive. Alive, for no reason. No purpose. Except for hating himself.

This beast was so dark, that even the shining stars would fail.

This beast was so cold, that even the hot sun couldn't burn on it.

This beast only cried behind closed doors.

This beast only howled in pain silently.

This beast broke down every day, yet he never asked for help.

This beast felt so much, that he started to stop feeling.

This beast held his tears inside, only to seem like a ruthless and stone like man.

But, he knew from inside that he was still Amir.

He knew his heart wasn't as cold as he pretended to be.

He knew that after so long he had given up. Yet, his heart still searched for her.

He knew that he was only punishing himself, for his bad deeds.

And one day, when his heart had given up. His mind had given up. His soul had given up. He made a deadly decision.

A decision that he thought would free him. Free him from his pain. Free him from his grief. Free him from his deathly life.

Only, if he knew what was coming ahead wasn't so dark. What was coming ahead would actually make him free. What was coming ahead would be the sweet fruit of his patience.

Yet, he took the deadly step. The step, he never thought will occur to him. Yet, it did.

And if he was to die tonight, she would be the last person in his mind.