Riverdale's Falling [13 Reasons Why x Riverdale]

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Zach's POV

I woke up feeling the exact same as I always did when I opened my eyes, guilty she was still all that I thought about every damn day I woke up and I could hear the tapes if I let myself daydream my mind would go directly to the tapes, I was just so sick of it. I bit my lip as I angrily shut off the alarm clock on my phone, I didn't want to hear the ringing I was awake, I had been for almost an hour now, all I'd been doing was thinking. I growled to myself pulling up the grey covers past my face even though i knew that if I wanted to be in school on time I would have to get up soon. I couldn't just mope around in bed for another twenty minutes no matter how badly I wanted to, or needed. I also knew that there was no use in asking my mom if I could have a day off. One because she never liked it when I missed school it always annoyed her, scratch that, it like really ate away at her. I had an Idea why it wasn't like me missing a day of school would affect my grades or my future which was really her top priority at every moment of every day but I knew that if I didn't go she wouldn't be able to think straight like a junkie looking for the next hit. So I just suffered through everyday day for her, I didn't want to see her in pain like I had after the whole Hannah incident. I sighed deciding that I needed to get out of bed. I pulled the covers off of me and sat up in my bed looking across from me in the mirror I looked just as bad as I felt. I got up walking out of my room grabbing a pair of pants on my way out. I walked down the hall to the bathroom turning on the light as I walked in slamming the door behind me. Today was a worse than others for some reason, today was just hitting me hard, I would get through right. I put on the pants and then brushed my teeth deciding that I didn't want to take a shower today. I went back into my room looking at the clock on my phone I still had a whole hour till I had to leave for school. I looked over at my school bag and smiled catching myself off guard at how fast my mood changed. I smiled thinking about that too. I reached over pulling my bag up into the bed opening it as I turned on my lamp. I looked through all of my papers just to make sure that all of my home work assignments were done from the night before and of course they were but I had to admit if I didn't check I would be paranoid I'd been forgetting something all day. I wanted to make a good impression on the new school wehter it just be teacher or students, I was already doing as good as I'd hoped I would but I wanted to make sure. The it hit me that I still had one more thing to do, it didn't freak me out though that I wasn't finished. It wasn't due for another whole week and a half and I had my partner to help me with it. Not that I wanted the help I had already finished half of the project by myself except the bit of help that i'd gotten with the notes. Usually I wouldn't have been this excited to do a project in fact in the way I'd been feeling lately  I didn;t know why I was happy at all. Actually that was a lie, I did. I wanted to impress Kalee. If there was like a to do list in y mind, impressing kalee would be right on the top right below getting to know her because even though i'd only met her yesterday she seemed to pull me in she hooked me on her line and I didn't even want to try to get out of her grip. It was weird you would think after all that I'd been through with Hannah that I would have trouble falling for someone at all not to mention so fast but with the blonde girl that sat with me in Bio, I wasn't. And I didn't mind. I got out my book and began to work on the rest of the project with the remainder of the time that I had left before I had to venture out to school where hopefully my eyes would be met to Kalee. 

I looked down at my phone as it buzzed. I looked down at it confused, I got a text in school, usually that would never happen or to be more specific one that was not from one of the boys talking about some girl, those I never cared about but this one, this one I had been fearing that I would get for a while. I never had really told anyone my story really about why I came here, I never went into depth about it I never wanted to I liked it better when I could avoid the topic of the bakers or Liberty. I would shy away from anything more than 'Yes I knew Hannah Baker.' I never want to ever talk about that situation I always felt like a horrible person because the truth as that I would always pin the events of that night in october on myself even though I knew that the reasons were listed right for my listening I still managed to drown in my guilt every night when I was in bed, weird right? 

I sighed taking in the letters one by one again making sure I'd read the words right again. 

"Something happened."

Emma texted me. I shook my head this really couldn't be happening right now.

-Drink