Two Girls, One Heart.

Gone

  "How could you!"
  "Ashley please!"
  "Fuck you Y/N!"
  "No I love you I really do I just-"
  "You said you loved me!"
  "Laur please... I do! I just..I"
  "FUCK YOU."
  "PLEASE GET OFF ME. IM SORRY! I-s-s-s"
  My breathing becomes strained. The hands around me neck taking the light from my eyes. How did it come to this? Why did it come to this? This must be the end. Everything I have is gon-

  "Y/N!!! Wake up!" I spring up and take in my surroundings. I finally realize where I am and take a deep breath. Lauren is sitting at the end of my feet, with a worried look on her face. I sit back against the headboard and close my eyes, trying to keep my breathing steady. I feel a weight in my lap and open my eyes again. Lauren is now sitting in my lap with her arms around my neck, looking into my eyes.
  "What was that Y/N? You okay?" She asks stroking my hair.
  "Fine babe...just a nightmare." I say leaning in and kissing her soft lips. She breaks away and kisses my forehead. I sigh in content and let her get off my lap so I can start my day. I go into the bathroom and take a shower after brushing my teeth. I put my hand against the wall and let the steamy water run down my back. Images from the dream keep replaying in my head. I try to find some peace of mind as I'm alone in the shower. But I feel a dark presence around me. Like a shadow man that lurks behind me, following my every move. Deep down I knew this was just my self conscious egging me on.
After I finished my bathroom routine I head downstairs to find Rickey and Lauren eating a bowl of fruit in the kitchen and talking about the newest fashion trends. I go up to Lauren and take a grape out of her hand and plopping it in my mouth. I make a smirk at her and kiss her forehead before turning to the fridge to get a bottle of water. We all sat there and ate fruit, talking about various things for a good thirty minutes or so. I had to say I was really enjoying my time with Lauren. Everything seemed to be so calm. We decided to go down to the beach since we didn't get much time yesterday. As Lauren and Rickey go to put their swimsuits on I take my phone out and check my notifications.

Bbygirl💙: call me.

Fuck my life. Im screwed. I get nervous as I step outside and dial Ashley's number. It ring twice before she picks up.

"Y/N."
"H-hi baby. Everything okay?"
"No." She replies coldly. I mentally prepare myself for what she's about to say next.
"What's wrong Ash?"
"I ask you to do one thing. ONE THING. Especially when you're away. I sit here and worry all day about you when you're away. And you can't even remember to call me before you go to sleep." I take a sigh of relief at her words.
"Fuck...I'm so sorry Ashley. I got really caught up an-"
"Whatever Y/N. If you cared that much you'd call."
"I do care! I'm a forgetful person, you know that. I'm really sorry Ash. I really am. I promise to remember and call you every night when I'm away okay?"
"Ok." She doesn't drop the low tone in her voice.
"Ash...please. I...I have a lot going on right now."
"I always have shit going on Y/N and I still call you!" She raises her voice.
"No...I mean... I know you do. But I'm not just talking about work." I say hanging my head low.
"Then what." She says sternly.
"I....I just don't feel great inside. I don't know why. But I don't want to bother you or show that I feel that way because I can't lose you." I reply, letting a tear fall from my face. Ashley is quiet for a few seconds.
"Y/N...baby no. Please don't feel like you can't talk to me. And know that you're not going to lose me. Especially for a reason like that because I'm here for you. You know that right?"
"Yeah..." I reply shyly.
"I'm sorry I got upset. I just worry about you that's all." Ashley has a more forgiving tone now.
"I know."
"Plus you'll be back tomorrow, right?"
"I plan on it."
"Okay well I don't know what's going on with what you're feeling but I want to see you soon so you can try to talk it out with me, okay?"
"Okay."
"I love you very much Y/N."
   "I love you too Ash."
"Have a good day and I'll see you tomorrow hopefully okay? Just let me know when you're on your way home."
"I will. Thank you."
"Always babe. Talk to you later."
"Later." I say and hang up the phone.
I go back inside to get ready for the beach.