You Were My Sanity

MIA

I don't know what happened.

One minute he and I are joyous bunnies conversing and the next, he's gone.

Thing is, it's been a over 2 months and I'm losing it.

I'm fucking losing it.

I though he was ignoring me at first, but then I talked to his girlfriend.

He's been gone for 8 weeks.

I don't know what's happened to him and that's the worst part. I want to know the reasoning for him being 'MIA'. I want to know the reason for his disappearance.

Raven, dammit, I need you.

I need to see you; I need to talk to you.

I need to know that you're okay: safe.

So that's what I'm doing. I'm going to see him.

You see, months ago, I got a job hoping to gather enough money to make it to the U.S.

When I told Raven he was over-joyed and he made sure to mention that I would be staying with him and he wouldn't have it any other way.

It's been approximately 11 months since our first 'encounter'.

I don't care though.

I was currently booking a flight and using my debit card.

Your flight has been confirmed.

It was tomorrow at 6am. I thought it would be easier to get out of the house before anyone was up and I have a tendency to wake up late therefore I wouldn't raise any suspicions in the morning until early afternoon hours.

He was in Long Beach, California. Which was apparently near L.A. Hopefully I'll bump into some celebrities on the way.

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I wasn't going to be lugging around a suitcase on the road halfway through the night. I'd look ... Strange and I most certainly don't want to attract attention towards myself.

I filled a gym bag with all the clothes that I think I'd need. My job in Starbucks actually had decent pay and I'm grateful the manager hired me with no experience.

It was thanks to my cousins dad who recommended me and also happened to be best friends with the manager.

I owe him.

My toiletries and everything else I would need were in a rucksack along with some money and shoes.

I ordered the rucksack online when I went on a residential stay with my school about 2/3 years ago. I'm lucky I found it.

I got a paper and wrote on it:

To Mum & Dad,

Don't worry about me. I'm fine - I promise. Just understand I had to get away for a bit. I will call you in a couple of weeks just to ensure you that I'm safe. I'll be back eventually just don't wait or try to find me. Please. I had to go though for unrevealed reasons but I will tell you; just not yet. I'm not missing by the way as I did this by choice and I didn't exactly run away, I'm just going away to ... Clear my head. Just remember, I had to do this. Bye for now.

Regards, Darina.

I placed it where I'm sure they'd find it, (next to my lamp) and went. It was 2:30am but the site told me to get there hours in advance. I had my passport, visa etc and started walking towards the bus station allocated across the road a street away.

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She's pretty stupid for practically running away isn't she? Comment what you think.