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Walking Contradiction

4 years later
"Mommy whens Daddy coming home?" Hayden asked me again for the fifth time today. I was trying to hold back tears, he had been gone for four months.

The band was touring everywhere around the USA, he called me two weeks ago saying he was coming back and he still hasn't so I decided to call him.

After a couple rings he finally answered the fucking phone.
"Hello?" He said
"Billie where are you?" I asked in a panicked tone.
"Y-your kids have been asking me for two weeks when is daddy coming home or where's daddy! Do you know how awful that is!"

I heard him sigh into the phone.
"I'm on my way home today, I'll be there soon." He said.
"Yeah you said that two weeks ago Billie Joe!" I yelled, the tears beginning to join in my eyes.

"I'll be there soon! I promise okay! Calm down!" I just laughed sarcastically into the phone.
"I love you." He said. I didn't answer him and hung up the phone.

4 months and only 5 phone calls, I bet he slept with some groupies, started drinking again. I know he loves music but what he does makes it so he's away from home so much, it kills me.

I regret not saying I love you back to him, saying I don't love him would be the biggest lie I've ever told. My thoughts were interrupted by Andrew coming over to me.

"Mommy! Look what I can do!" He yelled showing me his little acoustic guitar.
"Daddy showed me how to play it!" He yelled once again. I wiped my eyes and turned to face him.

"Show me what d-daddy taught you." I said, he smiled.
"Words get twapped in my mind, I'm sowey I don't take the time to time to feel the way I do." My heart stopped.

"Cause the first day you came into my life my time ticks around you." I started singing with him and when he stopped I immediately got flashbacks.

To the first time I saw Billie, the first time I kissed him, the first time he sang to me. It reminded me how much he cared about me. However I hadn't seen him in 4 months... what if those feelings he had for me faded away.

I bit my lip in an effort not to cry."
"Andy honey that was amazing!" I yelled picking him up and hugging him tight.

A couple hours later I heard the door open and immediately shot up. The kids got up and ran to the door.

"Daddy!!" I heard them yell.
"Hey guys!" I heard Billies voice.
I got off the couch and ran to the door.

He looked up at me and I remembered those beautiful green eyes and the way they looked at me. He put down Hayden and Andrew gently and walked over to me.

I stared into his green eyes for a few seconds and then leaped into his arms wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He wrapped his strong arms around me.

I grabbed the sides of his face and kissed him hard, he returned it and deepened the kiss.
"Ew! Mommy and Daddy are kissin!" Andrew said pretending to throw up and running to the other room, soon followed by Hayden.

We laughed and he set me down.
"I'm sorry I was gone so long I missed you so much." He said kissing me again. I missed him to but I was still a little angry.

"I missed you to but why did you say you were gonna be home two weeks ago? I thought something bad happened. You weren't answering your phone Billie Joe I didn't know what happened to you." I said a tear rolling down my cheek, he wiped it away with his thumb.

He stuttered trying to find an explanation. I was getting annoyed at this.

"Did you just not want to come home?" He shook his head no.
"I- I was drugged up when I told you and I know I have been clean for like a year now but I just missed the feeling of it." He said.