Scared of the dark

A decent to hell and a rise to insanity

There's so much I want to say.
But I say nothing at all.

Dan's pov

It's tormenting.
Life ruining.
The thought...
The thought that the only person you will ever truly love.
The thought that the person you once knew would one day become the one thing you hate so deeply.
But what hurts even more.
Is that you won't be around to help them through it.

" Okay, let's get going. I want to get home soon. I can't wait to lay on the sofa and watch some anime with you guys".
Phil smiled at me whole heartedly. With no care in the world.

My heart broke.

I forced a smile back and nodded my head, agreeing.
I saw Sean glance at me through the rear view mirror. His look was with concern. He was unsure of us not telling Phil about the situation.

But I wanted my last moments to be innocent with as much as Phil as I can get.

" When will Mark wake up?" Phil asked poking the sleeping man's cheek.

Mark looked so peaceful with his eyes closed and his mouth slightly ajar. The complete opposite to what he was hours ago. I cannot begin to comprehend what it was like, being possessed by a demon. Neither can I phantom what Phil must have gone through. I won't even try to understand how he could be around the face of the same vessel that tortured him so.
Phil is so strong.
And I love him for it.

" A few days, maybe a week" I told Phil.
A felt a piece of my heart brake when he looked back at me with a smile and I saw a flash of deep ocean eyes, instead of his sky crystal ones.

" That's a shame, I want to talk to him. He must have hated all the demon made him do. I want to help him" Phil poked the man's face again.

I was surprised to say the least.
Phil is so strong and kind. I would be terrified of the vessel that hurt me so much but all Phil wants to do is help him. He wants to talk to him.
It only made me fall in love more.

I'm done with denying my emotions for my best friend. I'm on my deathbed and it's time for me to realise this.

From day one I had loved the man.

Dan sits in front of a computer screen, waiting.

A call from Skype comes in,

From AmazingPhil.

Dan excitedly presses accept and he is greeted by the smile he has watched for so long. The same person that has helped him through so much. The same person who is watched when he was sad and it cheered him up.

" Hi, Dan. How are you today? I herd you've applied for university! That so great!" The voice of Phil rang through the room. Graciously greeting the young man. 

Dan smiled.
" Hey Phil, today was great. I was accepted".

I sighed at the thought of the old Skype call runs through my head. The young me from back then had no idea that I would one day be here. That one day i would be siting next to AmazingPhil. That one day I would love the boy much more then I could ever imagine possible.
Never would young Dan would have even thought that I would be sitting next to Phil, on my death bed.