That was the only word on my mind. I couldn't think straight at all. Briana was right, I am an asshole. I did, I mean I do care about her and I do lover her. But she's just holding me down while I'm on tour. I told her not to wait up on me. I didn't mean it. I really hope she does. As you can see I have a whole bunch of different emotions going on right now.
I'm stuck on one decision. Should I call Briana or should I let it go.
If I call her I will seem weak. If I don't call her she will suffer.
I decided I will call her sometime this week. But for now I will just let her think and I feel like I need time to think too. I decided to go on snap chat to see if there's anything new.
-- If You Can Take Or Look At Self Harm Or Even Read About It You Should Skip This Part Until I Have Another Warning Like This Saying Its Over--
-snapchat-
Bri👅❤️💍
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-End Of The Self Harm Part And End Of The Snap Chat Part-
--Still Shawn's POV--
When I saw everything on Briana's story I knew I had to call her asap. By now my hands were shaking. I guess I really wasn't thinking about Briana because if I was I would have remembered about her hurting herself. I called Briana, and after the 4th ring she picked up. I was on my tour bus so I couldn't be to loud.
--Phone call between Shawn and Briana-- (Shawn,Briana)
H-he-hello *sniffle* Briana Yes Sh-Shawn *lets out a small sob* Briana I'm sorry. Please don't hurt yourself Shawn yo-you said what you h-had to say and your ri-right you don't have t-time for my crap. I'm j-just getting in t-the way of your tour. So d-don't worry when you get b-back from tour I you w-won't have to worry about m-me because I will be out of your way Briana what are you talking about Sha............... (When there's someone talking like this that means it's someone talking in the background) BRIANA WERE ARE YOU OMG BRIANA GIVE ME THE RAZOR NOW...........
--End Of Phone Call--
Then the line went dead indicating that Briana had hung up the phone. My phone slipped out of my hands as I stared blankly at the wall. I'm pretty sure I looked like a had just saw a ghost.
