(7 weeks until Shawn comes back home from tour//I know its a big jump, but trust me it's worth it)
I miss him I love him I need him I want him He doesn't miss me He never loved me He doesn't need me He doesn't want me
I'm currently in my room in the magcon house listening to sad songs because I was missing Shawn. Yes it has been a while but I feel like it's impossible to get over him. I was currently listening to "Impossible" by James Arthur(song on top^). Shawn seems very happier with Camila and everyone on tour. I bet he forgot about me already. I was trying to get some sleep because tomorrow was the day i wish would have never come.
The day i move out of Shawn's apartment
The day shawn broke up with me he told me not to wait up on him. So i dont want to stay in the apartment and wait for him to never come back.
I decided to try to stop thinking about Shawn and post stuff on Instagram.
--Instagram--
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Briana_1998: Some people make promises. Not all of them keep them. It hurts a lot. But you grow from it.
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Bri_supporter: What is this about?? @shawnmendes
aaroncarpenter: Its gonna be ok i promise @Briana_1998
Briana_1998: Thxs ❤️ @aaroncarpenter
Briana-hater: Does this mean i can change my username name back to Shamila_supporter123 ????? @shawnmendes @Briana_1998
Briana_1998: Guess so 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️
(A/n: Briana and Shawn's ship name in Shana, lol comment if u find a better ship name. Thats all i have)
Shana_lover: No, no, no, i cant be over. I love briana and shawn together. I cant be over. @Briana_1998. @shawnmendes
shawnmendes:😔 i miss u. Im srry.. @Briana_1998
Briana_1998: Sure doesn't seem like it @shawnmendes __________________________
--End of Instagram--
--Still Briana's POV--
When i saw the comment shawn posted, it broke my heart. I know he probably means it, or maybe he's just doing it to make himself look good on the internet. I don't know. But i told him that it doesn't seem like it because its true. He keeps posting selfies of him and Camila on snapchat. I decided that i wanna stop looking weak in front of everyone. Im going to put on a fake smile and "enjoy" life. All this is an act so people would stop feeling petty for me. Even though i act all happy, i am broken into a million pieces. You might be thinking, why don't you find something that will actually make you happy? Well the truth is, i have tried but everything i do just reminds me of shawn because we use to do everything together.
