Forgotten? (A Shawn Mendes FanFic)

Chapter 31

-2:35am Gilinsky's POV-

Im in my hotel room and i haven't felt an ounce of tiredness come over me. Im sitting on the table with a pencil and a notebook, while Johnson is sleeping.  Thoughts of Briana keep passing in my head. I just keep thinking about what would have happened if I never started dating Madison. What if her and Shawn would have never gotten together. I feel that after all this time i still need her. Me and Briana never dated or anything but i always saw her as my dream girl. Shes strong, independent, beautiful, caring, and always puts others before herself even if it means hurting herself to save someone else. Shawn has broken her so much. She always had this shine in her eyes, but after this whole breakup situation its just been gone. When Matt told everyone why she was going to be staying with us my heart broke. She was never suicidal, except for this one time but that was also about Shawn. I dont know how to feel about this whole Shawn thing. On one side the only reason that Briana every hurt herself in the first place was because Shawn left her, but that also means that she loves him so much TO hurt herself.

Its been a while since me and Briana have had a normal conversation about something normal. I really miss her. 

I start writing random things on my notebook to see if i could get some lyrics from it.

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-4:26am still Gilinsky's POV-

Its been about 2 hours and ive gotten a couple lyrics down. 

*Gilinky's notebook*

-Thoughts of you and me keep passing by

-Like ships in the night, we never collide

-Need you even after all this time

-You cant be replaced even if i tried

-Every time i think i found somebody 

-I just wish that somebody was you

-Make it hard for me to love again

-Where do i start (loving again)  

-When do you end (running in my mind)

-No one compares to you

-Shes sleeping on your side, what can i do

-My mind is on you

-I know that i'll break, before i can bend

*End of notebook*

After i got all the lyrics i possibly could i went to go lay down. I'll show Johnson what ive wrote down later to see if we can put something together.

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-5:38am Briana's POV-

*A text convo between Briana and Shawn right now*

-I love you and i would never purposely do anything to hurt you Bri

-I know Shawn but how can I put myself through all this for you to leave and hurt me again

-Thats the thing Briana i wont leave. Remember that promise that i promised you before i left, that i wont ever forget you. Yea i never broke that promise because every second of that tour i was thinking about you. Although i made little effort to show you how much i care for you truly and how much i appreciate you, i just want you to know that i love you with everything i have. When i get back tomorrow the first thing im going to do is go to you and make you forgive me. But only if you want.

-um, i have dog

-lmao what 

-i have doggie now

-u have a dog now?

-mhm

-damn, a couple of days and you already moved on ;'( okay

-her names maxi, shes a Belgian Shepard. she was abused in her old home and now shes scared of people, but me and her are getting along.

-aw well hopefully me and her get along 

-shawn you're allergic to dogs, whachu mean

-im not tho

-??

-when i was little i always used to ask mom for a dog but she always said no, so it came to a point were she just told me that i was allergic so i can stop asking for one. but im not actually allergic

-LMAO THIS IS WHY I LOVE KAREN BRO

-damn okay wow i see

-k im going to sleep. gn

-wait can i ask for a favor?

-um sure?

-can you pick me up at 5pm from the airport?

-um yea ig. in ur jeep?

-yea. keys are in our apartment in the kitchen table.

-in the apartment*

-ok

-gn <3

*read*

I sighed as i connected my phone to the charger and put it on my bedside. Then i closed my laptop and put it on my bedside as well. Then i layed down as thoughts started to consume my head.

Am i ready to go back to him?