Forgotten? (A Shawn Mendes FanFic)

Broken?

-Shawn' POV-

Briana looks at me with questing eyes. I didnt want her the leave, I wanted to tell her everything and why.

"Shawn I really think this is a bad idea I should go. Its pretty clear you've moved on."

Moved on? What does that mea- the pictures of me and Camila. Omgg.

"Briana if you think that me and camila are a thing, were not I promise. Everyone says we are but we're not. Shes like a sister to me.

"Ok Shawn, im not saying you're lying or anything but im just not ready to get hurt again. Im going to the awards show tomorrow, im pretty sure you're going to, so if you are going then i will tell you if I forgive you or not."

"Are you going with someone" I asked her with hope in my eyes.

She looked down the she looked the her left then the ceiling, and then she finally looked at me. She let go of a breath and said,

"Yea, once Aaron found out about us he decided to ask me to go with him. I felt bad and said yes."

"Oh, um ok. I would understand why he did that. Tell him i said thanks for being there for you when i was being an ass." I chuckle and so did she. When she chuckled i quickly looked down at my feet as i felt my eyes burn. Just listening to her laugh makes me miss her, holding her, kissing her. E-everything.

"Shawn, a-are you ok?" She asks me lifting my chin with the index finger and thumb.

Once my eyes met hers I started sobbing. I hugged not caring if she felt uncomfortable. She immediately hugged back and said that i was going to be ok.

"No b-bri, im not going to be ok. Wanna know w-why, because i lost the most beautiful, smart, wonderful girl i have ever had in my life. I lost her because I thought by not calling her or texting her, it would hurt her less. But no I ended up braking her. And im sorry for that. Im sorry for not understanding that people like me are why girls like you are hurt. Girls that haven't done anything at all to deserve this, to deserve to be hurt. They deserve someone who wont hurt them and will give them all of his time. AND IM A FUCKING ASSHOLE AND IM SORRY! I CANT FUCKING LIVE LIKE THIS, EVERYDAY KNOW THAT IM LOSING YOU EVERY FUCKING MINUTE! I cant fucking do it anymore. I cant keep hurting you. Maybe Aaron does deserve you. Maybe you should go be happy, be happy and forget about this asshole right here. Trust me, you will be better than before. You will heal, the broken heart will heal, but the one who broke that heart wont because he has to live knowing he broke it." And with that i closed the door and locked it.