The Quiet | Yuwin

七 Seven

It's time.

A gush of adrenaline suddenly poured over me as some of us anxiously wait backstage, some still remaining in the dressings rooms.

Mark and Hansol's eyes grew larger than I thought they could become, while Haechan seemed to smile forcefully at Mark in order to facade his anxious state of mind.

It wasn't too long that I feel a huge pump to my back as Kun suddenly shocks me from behind.

"Aren't you excited?" He said whilst I nodded and started to get excited with him. How much this reminded of the time we first encountered the SM tower.

Taeil was warming up his vocals, which I could only assume he would be using his secret weapon today; his outstanding high note.

We all started to recite our script and each and every song. To my advantage, I didn't have to sing much due to my incapability of speaking Korean confidently, so I decided to recite my choreography instead.

Since everyone was stuck in their own space and reciting to themselves, I decide to divide myself further away so I don't disturb them while reciting the choreography. I ended up standing in an closed hallway, not so much closed, but empty so I just practiced there.

Without any thought, I started to dance to Super Junior's Sorry Sorry since that was our first song. I personally like the song myself, so this was really fun.

Squeals suddenly escaped me as I hear fans roaring for their entertainment. I couldn't help but close my eyes and basket it all. However, as I closed my eyes, I pictured something horrifying.. Faces.

Yes, millions and millions of faces, staring down at me. So I quickly opened my eyes and shrugged the thought off.

It only took me seconds to realise once again, we're performing in front of thousands of people.

I sat down on a bench directly placed behind me, looked directly to the ground and contemplated. Ottokhe~?

What if I fall like yesterday? Am I even capable of doing this today?

Just thinking about this made my head pound like it did earlier today. I think it made it worse just thinking about it.

Suddenly I realised I was having a panic attack, it's been a while since I've had one.

So I quickly wiped the sweat of my head and took deep breaths.

Suddenly, I could sense someone coming from around the corner, the figure seemed very familiar. As he got closer I noticed who he has...

It was Yuta.

I quickly looked down and cringed at myself, "Why am I such a wimp?" I couldn't bare to look at him, even though there was something I needed to ask him.

As he walked past me, one side of me wanted to confront him and ask him, but one side kept saying "Hajima! (Stop)"

What side am I going to choose?

"Y-Yuta~!" I shouted as the man came to a halt.

Winwin gulped as Yuta started to turn slowly and menacingly. Although I was meant to be intimidated, I felt more annoyed if anything.

"What" Yuta replied smugly with his hair slightly hiding the appearance of his eyes.

For some reason, my bipolar got the best of me and I suddenly wanted to thrash him to the ground right then and there. What kind of cockiness... Eh- I'm too small compared to him. He could potentially sit on me and crush me.

Externally, I seemed nervous and replied, "U-Um.. Can I ask you something?"

"No" Yuta replied smugly and proceeded to walk.

I swear I could feel hairs raising from the back of my neck, I was baffled.

Out of my control, I moaned a loud "Please" and to my surprise, he stopped again. I quickly covered my mouth in shock.

"What do you want?" Yuta asked.

While still in shock, I suddenly contemplate whether to ask him. Mentally, I was having a war right in front of him.

He rolled his eyes and turned back around and, once again, proceeded to walk.

"Do I annoy you?" I suddenly asked, but Yuta didn't stop and kept walking. I sighed and face-palmed at how desperate I sounded-

"You're an idiot" He smirked and suddenly left with no trace to be found.

Although I felt like straggling him to death, why am I relieved?
I swear I'm thinking way too much about this.

But that's not what I wanted to ask.

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We only had 5 minutes until show time so we all decided to meet backstage and huddle up for more inspiration from our hyungs. We formed a circle and I wrapped my arms around Kun and Hansol.

I had to stand on my toes in order to reach Hansol's shoulder, he giggled at me struggling. I clicked my teeth and sighed.

"Alright guys, we're only metres away from the spotlight. We've trained hard over the past few weeks for today, so we wouldn't want to disappoint our hyungs. But most importantly, disappoint ourselves. I hope you're doing well Winwin, all the best of luck for everyone." Taeyong declared as everyone nodded.

"Anyone else have anything to say?" He questioned.

"Yeah, don't get in my way while I shine. The last thing I want is for girls to fall for the wrong people but me." Haechan suddenly contributed to the conversation, but everyone glared at him.

Soon getting a good smack to the back of his head by Mark.

"Anyone?" Taeyong questioned, intentionally empathetic so someone could speak, "How about you Yuta?" He said, but Yuta snickered at Taeyong while glaring.

"C'mon!" Taeyong smiled nervously but sturn.

"Hmmph. Yeah, don't fall over." Yuta said, but he looked directly at me while saying it.

I couldn't help but stare at him at the same time until he broke the eye contact.

*Boys that will make your heart melt, SMRookies~!* The microphone suddenly declared.

"Let's do this" Taeyong eventually turned towards the stage, while all the other boys followed. I was following behind and suddenly felt someone pat my back.

As soon as I turned my head, I saw a wild Yuta run past me whilst grinning. I couldn't help but grin at the same time.

"Hmph.."

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i'm sorry. i listened to without you and got emo and decided to become more emo and look up rookies photos.

CAN HANSOL JUST DEBUT JEBAL?!

anyways, ya boys back with a double update. i read a fanfic and died and i got infired so i decided to update. woo

thanks to 300 views, im actually super duper ruper truper grateful.