About me, About my life and what lead me to try to end it.

Chapter 5- Third person

Now, i have been struggling for so long to explain this one. I know what i want to say, I just don't know how to start it. There has just been so much going on with this one person, As i don't know their gender. They actually never stated they were Transgender or not. So i will just refer to they as "They, and Them" Its my story and i understand they would want some respect. They are so fucking lucky they are getting it. Now this person we use to be quite close. Did everything. We even called each other sisters. Until everything changed. I was apparently the one to blame? Yeah alright, Whatever. Now, There is a lot that happened with this one person. I am just going to talk about the things that affected me the most. Now where do i begin?

Now, i was always dragged into their love life. When it didn't work out with this guy they loved. They must of dated so many times. Like four? Cant call exactly. But i would constantly them  to just move on, He didn't like them anymore, or any of  the stuff they would complain about etc. I am going to give them some both privacy and not state what they were complaining about but honestly. He didn't like them, so i told them to move on, Then they told me to stay out of it. Like what? They told me i didn't understand?? I was friends with the guy they liked... I knew him a lot longer than they did. So me being me i said to my friend...

"Look, you just need to move on, i know it is hard, But he just isn't into you anymore. there will be somebody there for you. I'm here for support but you just need to understand if he doesn't like you then he isn't the one" 

Now that is what most people say to help somebody through a break up right? At least i thought, But they didn't care. They soon got their other friends to give them notes and everything, and got upset when he never read them or whatever. Now to be honest right now i don't care. I tried everything to help and in the end it just wasn't enough? So i gave up trying. This is when i didn't bother to get involved in relationships or anything like that. It always seemed i was just used for relationship advice or to sort somebody else problems. Like i understand its nice they think i can help. But like all the time. Every week. It got annoying then i started to feel like i was being used. Now, Me and this person got into a lot of fights. Constantly, But we always make up like a week later. That soon all changed, Something happened, Which i am not going to go into detail about it. But anyway, This person just would not drop the whole thing, We got into a lot of drama since then, I cant even remember how it all happened. But i will state a few things that happened; The convo's we had, A little note they claimed to have not wrote, But i knew it was them.. So did everybody else. Also how they would never leave my mum the fuck alone.

But i remember her telling me to get a reality check.. They thought i was lieing about my mental illnesses. Yeah, What the fuck do they know. I told them everything and then when we fall out its all lies. Pathetic right? i remember them saying;

"Just stop it, Because I've honestly got no time to have negative people like you in my life" 

Now the proper thing to do at this point would be block me? Nope they went on. So i told them that they needed the reality check. They were the one causing all this stupid drama. Yes like for fuck sake sort your life out before you get involved in mine. If you coulden't handle the shit i went through then piss off. 

Now this person would always change their name. Not on registers or anything like that, But on social media and expect people to call them that. Like.. Um. If you didn't change it so much people would actually remember what to call you... It went through so many. I understand it takes a while to choose. But for fuck sake. they must of used the same name like three times? Then they call me a selfish bitch. Right okay then. Like you don't need to tell me every single fucking time you change your name, Or seek my approval. Its nice they wanted my approval i am not shooting them down for being themselves but speaking for a lot of people when i say "It got annnoooyyyyingggg" I finally understand what i mean to them. After all this time of me helping them. Through their problems and friendship shit and i get;

"You finally realized what a selfish bitch you are?"

So it went on and on...I didn't feel like blocking her cause it was fucking funny of how "Bad" or how "Better" they were trying to be. No. You are being a little immature bitch and i don't give a shit if you are reading this honestly. Cause it needs to be said. So i told them to watch themselves around me. It was kinda a threat but not a threat if you know what i mean? I was in no god damn fucking mood to be pissed around by them again. They never left me the fuck alone. They told shit to my other friends who soon left me. What a cunt right? Then they tell me to control myself better. Yes well at least i am the one receiving help for my problems here...I even TRIED to help you with yours, and you never once actually thanked me for it.. I hope this person realized how fucking idiotic they were being...

Oh, Here is another thing, Its about a note....