About me, About my life and what lead me to try to end it.

Chapter 6- Third person #2

Now in the previous chapter i mentioned about a note..Yes, A note. The one thing that most CHILDREN would do to bully people right? 

Well, this person thought i wouldn't find out it was them.. Like really. I have been friend with them and their "Little group" for ages, i knew.. So, I am in fact going to quote the whole thing and i don't care..They wrote the note saying

"To; (Attention Whore) 

The level of hatred i have towards you is indescribable. Seriously. I fucking hate you. You have no idea how much i want you to just fucking die. for you to die, it would just be the happiest day of my life. I fucking hate you!! Just kill yourself already you fucking cunt. You made my life a living hell. So you deserve everything you fucking get. You are just like Banksy and you lower the average IQ of this fucking country ~J x"

Now, I knew that it was signed "J" and i didn't know who it was. Then somebody close to me told me the name was "Jasper" Yes i'm sure you all know who that is right? Not so fucking cleaver now. The sickest part is that i didn't find the note my friend did. This person clearly didn't know i shared a locker with my best friend. So i was sent home for some reason i cant remember. My friend soon finds this note in my locker, Reports it to guidance and tell me and my mom, THANK YOU SO MUCH! They showed me this note, And i instantly knew who it was. But i didn't wanna make any assumptions so i go off and ask other people. It seemed like everybody knew about it? I don't know, But anyway.. So one of my friends being so amazing does the wrong but right thing to do and ask that person we thought. So she does. Now, The messages the person replied back with stated exactly what was in the note, they replied back saying;

"Well next time. Don't lie to people to get a confession out of them. Katana deserves everything she gets. And the amount of hatred i have towards her is indescribable" 

Yes, Now i'm sure you notice that line from the note.. Yes, So we knew, It was a clue. They were in on it. Okay, so I am just as confused as other on this. But why would u write a note telling me to kill myself. Like say it to my face? Or are u scared we would report it to the police. Well. We did. That is a death threat and highly illegal. So my mum reported it. But no, Its amazing how much a little note can affect you, I tried not letting it get to me. I just bottled it up all inside. Pushed it aside. Then they denied it. Its like just own up. So a person who i will not name offered to give us evidence of this persons handwriting as they use to write notes to each other all the time. Now, It sure does seem a bit fishy if even others are going against you. This note kinda started the whole remembrance of Mine and this persons drama. Yay, Lovely way to remember my life last year. 

Next part, So they stated they hated me. Okay cool, Nice.. They clearly stated more than once they wanted me to die. So then they go on and tell me to "Just kill myself already" Now this was adding to all the shit i had already gone through, At this point i wasn't telling anybody i was thinking of it. I just wanted to end it all, Not because of this stupid note. But to shut everybody little fucking mouth and all the shit they had to say about me. Now, Then they go on to explain i made their life a living hell. Okay, so um why did u want to be friends? I still even question that to this day and apparently i lower the average IQ of this place. Well last time i checked the IQ is quite high for here and that is funny coming from a person who always asked me for notes, Or asked for my help. Or advice, Yeah. Okay, i think i am okay for leaving school any time soon. Aha, So, Yeah. That note has soon be dealt with, And that person better fucking regret ever writing that shit, I was not even in a good mood, i was told my Councillor i was lieing, so then my own BEST FRIEND. Tells me to kill myself. Well i can tell you we no longer even look at each other now. Seriously. Got something to say. Say it to my face. That's what you use to tell me? 

Are you fucking happy i tried? And i have been thinking of it from time to time now!!?

Call me an attention seeker i don't give a shit.