Today, Forever, And Always

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Annie's POV
What is the definition of "cold feet" nervousness? anxiety? Because if so that's what I feel right now. I was pacing around in my wedding dress. Shifting in my hoop skirt.

I heard a knock on the door.
"Come in." I stuttered. It was Brooke in her bridesmaid dress.

I had to pick something that could go with each of there skin tones.
"Annie breath. Please. Breath for me." She says sweetly. I take deep breaths.
"This isn't cold feet this is normal. I love him. I'm getting married." I say to myself.
"Okay. Annie its time." My knees weaken.
"I can do this. I can really do this." I try saying.
"I need a minute. I'll be right out." She nods and leaves. I sit down.
"Bubba. It's Annie. It's my wedding day. Am I doing the right thing?" I sigh. I continue.
"Remember that day when I put on mommy's wedding dress, and you promised to walk me down the aisle with Daddy. Well that's not happening. Bubba I really need you here. And I want to believe your here with us but I don't feel it. Even with the thumbie and your baseball ring. I wish I could just see you for a second. Is that possible?" I pause so I can collect my feelings. I can't cry. The ground shakes. An almost holographic image appears in front of me.
"Annie Banannie!" He exclaims. "Holy crap." I cry.
"Okay it's your wedding day. Your all grown up. What happens now? This is just a piece of paper. But I support you through everything. Anyway I've been watching you, only you I trust Hayley. Even though I check in on her, I focus on you. This boy I approve. He's good to you and the family. I'm sorry I never said goodbye. But I will be with you today. Just like every other day. I'm going to walk you down the aisle." He says smiling. I miss his smile. He walks over to a desk, that gave me a funny feeling when I saw it. He opens the locked drawr.
"It really hurt when you left this here in a fit of rage, and sadness." He said weakly. He handed it to me. My heart dropped. I remember.
"Hayden and I's first date." I said weakly.
Flashback
Annie's POV
I woke up alone in the hotel room. Crying. This happens alot. I dream about caleb and I wake up in a pool of my own tears. I shot up. I stopped crying but tears kept slowly falling as I got ready. No one knows about this. I looked at myself in the mirror, I'm not as strong as everyone thinks I am. I think to myself. I see the dog tag around my neck with Calebs picture. I don't know what came over me but I pulled it off my neck. Crying hysterically. I thought to myself he didn't say goodbye or even goodnight. He was mad at me. Why shouldn't I be mad at him? I yanked open the desk drawr. I locked it with something you can't cut through, and a password only Caleb would understand. I hold my thumbie close to me, falling to the ground. I pull myself together and get ready. Soon Hayden comes to get me.
"Annie." He saw the puffiness around my eyes.
"What's wrong?" He continued.
"Just Caleb." I replied. He looked at me confused.
"I just have nightmares about him sometimes." I said as he opened the door.
"Hayden I honestly don't know anymore than that." I say as Hayden and I walk out of the hotel room.
"Okay but it doesn't make sense!"
I see daddy and mr Jimmy standing in front of us. I froze.
"Anymore about what." Daddy asks.
"Haydens been bugging me for an hour trying to figure out the meaning of Leblanc. And I told him it's French for white so people always debated what our last name was. And said hayley had a different dad than Caleb and I." I cover up what we were really talking about. Hayden nods.
Flashback over
"Bubba I'm sorry. I love you And I miss you. And this was really hard for me." I look at the necklace.
"I love you Julianna." He says as he places the necklace over my head. In the blink of an eye it's all gone. The drawr is still locked. The necklace around my neck. I walk out of the room with a smile on my face.
"You ready Annie?" Hayley asks.
"With you and bubba by my side, I can take on the world." I say holding my thumbie. She looks at hers and smiles.