nonchalant | lai guanlin

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narration; untold part of guanlin

it's just a normal day for me. sana but something's off. too bad hindi ko maisip kung ano. i'm going to meet devone today and to tell you frankly ilang buwan narin kaming ganito, walang label pero okay lang as long as she's with me. naffrustrate na nga ako minsan dahil sa kanya. she's driving me crazy!

"hyung ano plano mo?" seonho asked me out of the blue. inaayos namin yung books dito sa library nagvolunteer yang sisiw na yan kaya no choice akong tulungan siya because he wrote my name in the list too!

he knew everything and up until now wala parin akong sagot. it's been weeks since tito junyoung talked to me and believe it or not i wasn't aware na he's devone's dad. choi kasi siya so i did my own research para sure and i found out na devone ahn talaga ang name niya. mapilit yung daddy niya kahit ilang beses ko nang tinanggihan yung offer niya he keeps on pushing me.

"i love her" i said.... in my mind nga lang. i'm too scared. i'm afraid simula nung kinausap ako ni tito junyoung. dapat masaya ako diba? i'm in love with my future wife haha wala ng problema kung dumating yung time na yun. but no, kasi i'm really afraid of devone paano nalang kapag nalaman niya yung sa deal? kahit hindi ako pumayag at kahit pagbalibaliktarin ang sitwasyon may alam parin ako. may dahilan parin siya para magalit sakin.

"basta hyung ha kahit anong mangyari wag mo siyang sasaktan. close na kami nung babaeng yun kaya masasabi kong kilala ko na siya. she's fragile." tss kung umasta talaga tong si seonho akala mo expert sa love. but yeah, she's fragile.

"hindi nga obvious. ang clingy mo lang naman sakanya. stop hitting my girl seonho tsk"

"clingy? nakakain ba yun" mas napuna niya pa yung clingy kaysa sa 'my girl' na sinabi ko. patapos narin kami dito kaya iniwanan ko nalang siya mag-isa. nararamdaman kong gutom na yon baka ako pa kainin ng sisiw na yan. susunod rin naman yan sakin sa canteen at manggugulo samin.

"girl you know devone choi?" napakunot ako ng noo dahil sa narinig ko. a familiar voice mentioned devone's name.

"yung girl ba to na laging kinukulit si guanlin?" yeah i'm eavesdropping but i dont care.

"yeah, i found out she's ahn junyoung's daughter!"

"wait what? paano nangyari? saan mo naman napulot yan missle?" oh i see.. that missle girl... she once became my schoolmate when i was in taipei.

"narinig ko kasi si Miss Minchin and yung staff while i'm heading to the library kanina. she's devone ahn"

"oh look who's here" ngiting ngiti pa siyang hinarap ako.

"hi babe" what the hell nakuha niya pang haplusin yung mukha ko. she placed her hand around me and she suddenly kissed me on my cheek.

"what are you doing?!" singhal ko sakanya. marahas ko naring inalis yung kamay niya sakin.

"guanlin, hindi mo ba ako namiss?" hinead to foot ko lang siya, hindi ako makapaniwala sa babaeng to. hanggang dito ba naman?

"hey can't you see my effort? at least show me some love. sinundan pa kita hanggang dito sweetie" napailing nalang ako sa kanya and I was about to leave them nang magsalita siya ulit.

"i know what's up guanlin. you're having a hard time, devone's the only daughter of mr ahn and you're dating her. pwedeng pwede ko naman yun ipagkalat right? dating her dahil sa benefits at mas lalong madali lang siya magkaron ng fake friends na pinakainiiwasan niya."

"shut up! what do you want ba ha?! hanggang dito ba naman guguluhin mo ako"

"your love guanlin. love me. be mine at hindi na kita guguluhin." paanong naging possible yang sinasabi niya? tf!

"ooops before i forgot congratulations nga pala. nagtagumpay ka makapasok sa ranking because of connections. hahahaha thanks to devone though." she waved her phone in front of me and left me dumbfounded. i have no idea what is she talking about.

"guanlin!! lai guanlin!!!" hingal na hingal pang tawag sakin ni dongho hyung.

"nakita mo na to?" turo niya dun sa cellphone niya. what's with their phones ba? am i obliged to know what's on it?

"tingnan mo dali!" agad ko namang tinignan yung screen and biglang nanlaki nalang yung mata ko.

"r-rank 7 ako?"

"oo guanlin! congrats nagawa mo!!" i have no idea how did i make it but one thing's for sure hindi to dahil sa pagiging ahn ni devone.

i was about to enter the pizza house to surprise her kasi finally tito junyoung told me na devone wants to meet me, not as guanlin but as the man who'll be her man, her property in the future. pero nagkabaliktad imbes na siya magulat ako pa ang nasurprise. seonho hugging her. they look so happy though

and that was the last time i saw her.

siguro hanggang dito nalang kami. i love her but.. okay never mind since in the first place all buts are the most painful thing.